statuesque

Bonus chapter for you lovely people

Dear diary,

Okay, this doesn't sound so much fun because I'm entering college and I'm still having a diary as an imaginary friend. It makes me feel better isn't it my friend? So they have no excuse to tease me about it.

I was planning a farewell party for me and my friends, just a little time for us to bid our goodbyes to each other. I want to thank the for letting me enter the group even if I wasn't that deserving at that time. I've stop whining at how skinny and pale-skinned I am and how no one loves me, because the moment I started to think of it, the more the issue gets larger, and I started to live my life being a trash. My parents were being happy about my grades, and I'll start living in the dormitory so I would be away from them for a while, if we only have this happy family life before, ugh, I wasted so much time to feel this.

Remember when I first started writing to this notebook, oh, how I look like a ghost that time. I envied people who have fats in their body before, because look at my old self, she looks like a white wooden stick! Like a ghost that's thin. My bulgy eyes started to fit my face well, and I wouldn't have to worry about my appearance. Boys? I've ignored them for a while, I can live without them, I realized.

Ah, my first love, we're still friends. And it's so awesome because I learned that he's entering a life as a priest! Isn't that amazing? I can finally deepen my relationship with God through a friend, at least we never ended what friendship we had established. The guy who messed me up? He's back in his notorious ways, I don't care if he'll apologize for what he did to me, I forgave him, for myself. It always serves as a lesson, but it only makes me stronger.

I think I should take up a course wherein I could help other people who suffered what I was going through before. Not to be a creepy doctor or something, because sometimes they look like robots who are designed to do the same thing all over again. I can help as a friend, or even give services for free? I could be someone who could take away traumas or phobias, that course or person exists right? Atleast, I would know what my purpose is, that there's a reason why it has happened to me. 

I have a lot of smiles to offer!

For now, I have to pack my things.

                                                                     Love,

                                                                     Me 

P.S Don't forget to be awesome. And never give up. Check out my other slightly awesome stuff (works) if you can.