Trickery and Ice

The Day We Went to Starbucks

[WARNING: LANGUAGE AND SOME WEIRD STUFF I CAN’T EVEN EXPLAIN]

“Told you, you need to relax.”Jack leaned on the doorframe while playing with his hoodie.

I smiled at him and he returned it back. “Yeah I felt quite free at this moment.”

He grins at me. “Hey, what’s your next class?”

“Math. Why do you ask?”

He shrugged. “Nothing. I might as well walk the bossy leader to class since a) we both have that class and b) see reason a.”

I grinned but then it was replaced by a confused look. Since when was he in my Math class? He noticed this and tried to explain. He said that we both have Health, Art, Math and even Gym together. I, being the curious person I am, asked how he knew my classes. However, he just shrugged and walked me to Math.

The walk was not as awkward as I thought it may be. Considering that we both hate each other and I actually still do despite the Saturday morning and the reassuring smiles a while ago. I mean, it’s nothing. He might still feel the same and still hates me. It’s not that I want him to be nice to me but a little comfort besides Anna, Rapunzel and Merida are quite nice.

“So Nirvana huh?” He pointed at my pin that was on my black satchel.

I nodded my head. “What bands do you like?”

“Green Day and Blink-182.”

I gasped. “Me too!”

He found this funny and laughed which I joined in afterwards. We then talked about our favorite food and other things that we absolutely love. By the end of our walk, I found out that he likes Green Day, Blink-182, pizza (garlic shrimp), has a weird feet fetish and has a great computer skills.

“After you.” He opened the door and I walked in. There were only a few students inside and none of them caught my attention. However, Jack is already talking to some tall blonde guy who looks like a harvester from the mountains. I can’t really criticize though because that will make me a hypocrite and a bastard as well.

While the class is filling up, I decided to sit on the chair next to Jack’s since he’s the only one I know. He noticed this and waved his hand like a five year old boy that saw candy. I giggled and returned it as well. Although the blonde that he still happens to be talking to seems angry and felt interrupted.

“I’m sorry but we’re talking here.” The blonde crossed his arms and shot me a glare.

I felt a little bit offended but gave a puzzled look. Jack on the other hand, laughs as he realizes what’s happening. I poked him and asked what’s funny and he tried to explain it before Mr. Iero came.

“He’s just wants me that’s all.” He winked at me and I pressed my lips into a line. I still don’t know what to react when he does that. I mean, should I wink back and try to play the hey-I’m-going-to-pretend-flirt-with-you or just nod and return my attention to whatever thing is there to distract me. I think the last option suits the best for now since I don’t really know what’s with us.

Not that there is an “us” but what I mean is that are we friends or are we still enemies. Are we acquaintances or less than that? I don’t know what we are but I can tell that whatever he does to me, it always affects me.

Let the constant teasing be our first example. When he teased me, I went to the emergency room for the first time since I stopped self harm which was ages ago. Second, when he went to school that morning, I hate to admit it but he somehow changed my mind. I mean isn’t it obvious. I just came out to people as a normal and not bossy teenager. Third, the way he smiles. It’s just contagious and warm. I can assure you that if you can just see it, your frozen heart will melt. Fourth, the walk. I thought he was just some jack ass who likes to play pranks on people but he isn’t. He’s like me. We both like the same bands, the same food, heck, we both like Star Wars and Lord of The Rings and we even have Ron’s wand. Not to mention that we’re both fucked up before. But I don’t want him to know that I know that and I don’t want him to know that I was too.