INSIDE PAIN (JIMIN AND XIUMIN FANFIC )

Part 1- The Start?

" I have nothing to do with my life, what's the point of  living when you're only going to be in a hospital full of crazy people " I said softly while chuckling. I got out my little knife ready to cut my arms till death. " Stop!" It was like a man's voice. " You have so much to do with your life than start cutting your arms " he said while approaching me.
Authors POV: Going to fast? Let me back up a bit.
3 years before
Issa POV: " No! It can't be!" I cried my heart out while I kneeled on the floor with my hands on my face.
" Sorry Issa, I know losing your parents must be such a horrible experience for you right now but you have to be strong " said the doctor. " How am I supposed to be strong when I lost my parents in a car accident and my brother in a suicide act!" I said while still crying. The doctor just looked away with sorry eyes."I should get going now, I have so much to do now" I said while sobbing and getting up from the floor. I got out of the room and to my car. " Now what am I going to do" I said with a cracky voice. A tear escaped my eye. When I got to my house I could still recognize my parents smell. My mom always smelled like candy, and my dad like mint, I started crying in the couch.

It was now 9:00 pm and I was still on my couch when I heard my phone. It was my bestie Lia, she had lost her parents as well but she at least had her big sister Dana. I picked up my phone " Hello Cutie what's up" she said. I started crying again. " Hey what's wrong?" She sounded worried. I couldn't talk, my sadness took over my body and I couldn't talk. " You know what I'm coming to your house bye" she hung up. I was crying my life out. She ring the bell and I opened. " Omg what's happening?!" She hugged me while closing the front door with her leg. " My-my parents p-passed out in a c-car accident" I said while crying more. " Ohh no! Today?!" She said while putting her head on top of mine and caressing my hair " yes " i said while sobbing. " Ah my baby " She said while a tear was on her cheek " A-are you crying ?" I asked. She cried a bit more " Yes, it reminds of me being like this when I lost my parents as well" She said while hugging me, I hugged her back. " We are both in this ok? " I said " We are " she said.

It's the next day and I just got from my parents funeral. My bestie was in this with me and that's why I always trust her. " Want to eat something? " She said. " What's there to eat?" I asked. " There's Mac and Cheese..? " She said " ok " I said.

I was watching a movie when something popped up in my head " I wonder why Kai hasn't been contacting me this past days" I said while I heard Macaroni being put in a bowl " maybe you should visit him or just call him" she said while coming to sit down next to me " I just put the macaronis to boil " . " nice " I said while smiling " I love that smile " she said while poking my cheeks. " I should maybe visit him " I said . " go ahead I will prepare the food " she said while getting up. " ok bye " I said getting out of the house.

I got into the car and went to Kai's house ( by the way Kai is my boyfriend). When I got there I opened the house since I have a spare key. I got inside and heard a moan from upstairs, I was waiting the worst. I got upstairs and went to the room and opened it. I saw Lia's sister making out with Kai. " WHAT THE HELL DANA!!?! " I screamed at her. " Bitch go away don't you see we are here on a session!? " said Kai. " What did you just say Kai? " I was in my level of punching everyone. " look Issa I don't like you anymore Dana has a way better seducing body than yours and why would I want you if now you don't have any advantages? " he said while rubbing her womanhood which made me so angry and sad at the same time " advantages? What advantages?!" I was so done. " You had tons of money when your parents WERE alive but now your alone, without no one and no money, so what's the point. Now that you know go fuck off! " he said when he went back kissing her. " you know what, I'm so glad we're done, I wouldn't want to be in a relationship with an asshole!!!" I screamed and l drew a line with the key in the wall all the way to the door and threw it away. I got into the car and I was surprised I didn't cry. I guess I didn't love him fully because he had done it a couple of times but he always said the girls forced him to do it, I guess he only wanted me for my money.

When I got to the house I was so red for all the anger I had. " Hey what happened?" She asked while she put the plates of mac and cheese in the table. " Did you know?" I said coldly " know bout what?" She asked confused. " about your sister making out with Kai?" I said, I was getting a bit more mad she didn't know what her own sister was doing, but would you really blame her? " What!!? " she said while she approached me. " Are you sure it was her?" She said worried. " Yes!" I said while sitting on the couch. " I'm am so sorry. Look I am going to talk to my sister about this and I am going to make sure everything's ok." She said sitting next to me. " No it's ok, he just wanted me for my money." I said disappointed. " look at the bright side, you don't have to worry bout him no more and your free!" She leaned into my ear and said " and there's mac and cheese" I laughed and when to eat.

Part 1 END