Bad boys and badder girls. g.d

Spontanious

I get home and start to do my homework

I shower and I come back into my bedroom with just a towel

I take off the towel so I'm standing in nothing

I examine the bruises and cuts that hurt when I touched them

I deserved these. I'm a horrible person. Unloved and cold hearted

I'm broken

I stand there for about 5 minutes straight. I couldn't trigger another panic attack from crying and thinking to much

I get panic attacks when ever my dad leaves my room

The times when I'm bloody and scarred

I decide to cover my body in makeup

I foundation and concealer to hide everything

I walked over to my window still naked and shut my curtains

I changed into some lace panties and an oversized nirvana hoodie

I crawl on my knees and pull out my cherry flavoured vape from under my bed

I sit at my window and start to breath in the fumes and breath them out

It was already dark out and it was beautiful

"You know smoking isn't good for you" Grayson calls from his window

"Does it look like I give a fuck" I ask taking a big puff out from my Tabacco filled vape

"No, but I do" he says

"Well I never asked u too" I respond

"Put on some pants and meet me outside" he says

"Why is me in my panties to distracting?" I say smirking and tugging at my underwear

"Don't tease me baby girl" he says biting his lips

"Fine" I say turning around and bending over to pick up my sweats

"O god" he says under his breath

I giggle to myself

"Enjoying the view" I ask

"Very much" he says

I put on some black sweats and leave nothing on under my hoodie

I walk downstairs and sneak out of my house quietly