Join Me In Hell

Stammi Vicino (Stay close to me)

This story that has no meaning
Will vanish this night along with the stars
If I could only see you, eternity would arise from hope
Stay close to me, do not leave
I am afraid to lose you

----taken from Stammi Vicino(Aria)  Yuri on Ice

Yuuri  stood in front of  the hotel room door , hesitating  and clutching  the key card in his hand.    It had been there waiting for him at the reception desk just as he'd been told it would be,  handed over to him by a smiling  attendant.   

 Yuuri was the one who asked for this meeting.    He had one last request from Viktor,  one  he  prayed  would not be denied.   

Why did he feel so uncertain now?    

He knew exactly what he must do,   Celestino's instructions were more than clear.   Yuuri never once questioned Celestino, there had never been a reason to doubt the man to whom he owed his life many times over.  His duty was clear.  There was a man who was making threats to Celestino,  and those threats must be answered.  If Celestino was to remain a powerful figure in the family  he would be forced to silence those that might seek to undermine him.  It was Yuuri's duty to be Celestino's hand in such matters.   Yuuri had been ordered to  silence this threat  and to be certain no  living person would ever bear witness of  it.   There couldn't be anything or anyone left that might tie Celestino to this man's death.  

So his valued tool only had one last use.   

  Of course this was how Celestino saw him,  but even knowing this Yuuri couldn't help but think on the past weeks and all the memories.  Had all of that been merely a gift?  Had Celestino known all along this would happen? 

Yuuri's left hand found the contents of the left pocket of his pants, fingers tracing over the autoinjector syringe he'd been given.   His last  mission for Celestino, his last duty  for the man he respected and admired.   A final gift to the boy he'd rescued from a life on the streets.    

In truth Yuuri had no real fear of death.   He had long ago accepted what would be his inevitable fate given the life he led.  After all the men he'd seduced into bed with him,  all the secrets he'd discovered and the lives he had taken  Yuuri doubted he would make it to Heaven.   People like him belonged elsewhere.   

He had expected he might have been  allowed a longer life though.  

Using the key card Yuuri swiped, waited for the light and opened the door.  

Inside the room Viktor sat in a comfortable chair,  sipping red wine from what was most likely a crystal goblet , looking up as  Yuuri  stepped inside and smiling  as he shut the door behind.    The man's expression was   the same carefully unreadable one he usually  displayed but Yuuri was undeterred. 

 This night of all nights  he meant to succeed.    It wasn't like there was going to be another  chance.   

He'd wanted Viktor from the first time he saw the man, when Celestino first introduced them.   He'd never wanted anyone or anything more and it frightened him.  In the short time since that fateful meeting they'd become closer, or Yuuri thought so.  Their conversations much more relaxed and easy, but there was always that glass wall between them.  A wall they'd both constructed.  No matter what Yuuri tried, even when he let himself relax and give up his practiced ways of seduction there always seemed to be something in the way.     

Hadn't Viktor allowed him to deviate from their planned mission and visit Hatsetsu?  

The time they spent there in his hometown provided a glimmer of hope back then, hope that he might be able to reach the man Viktor held so tightly guarded inside him.    They had spent  a few   nights  together since that first in Paris, sharing warmth and something more but not the closeness Yuuri  yearned for.    He wondered if Viktor was only being kind to him,  was he being pitied in the end?