Warning if you are sensitive to depression don't read thx~
Dear readers,
I have depression.I'm always putting down on myself in secret when I'm joking around and being happy and positive.it's all fake.I don't have self confidence in fact I cut like a lot but at this point the cutting doesn't help.im having suicidel thoughts and i might just go through with it.but I bet you guys think "wow join the club" but this is serious.depression is serious and signs of it often go overlooked.everyday when you feel suicidal just think about everyone who loves you and it probably won't be easy for them to live without you.Don't think about those people who give up on you out of no where and won't be affected if you kill yourself.My problem is two of my closest friends recently gave up on me and trust me, if I were to kill myself they wouldn't be effected they wouldn't give a dahm.They won't even look at me without looking away quickly or making a face that's indubitably going to hurt me.it especially hurts since they don't give a duck if I cry or if I'm depressed 😢it's so stressful and I just want to die.but then again I have all of my TRUE friends and my boyfriend who care about me dearly.They are the only reason I'm not dead yet I love and appreciate them because they do the same.The song above is what I'm using to get over one of my friends who out right threw me away it explains how I feel because they have moved on but I miss them and I wish they would talk to me.I want to tag them but...They might hate me more.😭
Anyways I guess that's all for now.
Goodnight lovelies~♡
