The Big Bad Alpha

Let me be perfect for you

PLEASE LISTEN TO LOST ON YOU BY LEWIS CAPALDI WHILE READING THIS

It's up there or to the side.

Alura's P.O.V.

I sat on the warm couch staring out the window. The glass was painted with raindrops, trickling down slowly. I watched as the cloud let out its cries, wanting to let mine out as well. I want to forgive Xavier, he is my mate there is the pull. I want nothing more than to just stay in his arms forever, I've completely forgotten about Lucas. Xavier makes me feel things that I have only read in books, I can't deny the feelings I have for him, but can I forgive him?

The door to the bedroom opened and I could hear the rough thump of his footsteps. I could smell the woods, I was immersed in him.

"Alura, baby I made you breakfast" he said. I can't seem to get myself to turn around and accept this. I just need the time to think. Him being here makes it harder for me to focus. I need to make my decision, I need to live my life, I can't just keep Xavier around if I can't forgive him. I need to think.

"It's okay I know, I'm not the greatest person in the world. I haven't treated you like how you should have been. I know that I am a complete and utter asshole. I know that it will be hard to forgive me, but please I'm begging you to try. I didn't know that I could ever feel this way, all my life all I've felt was betrayal, hurt, and anger. Now that I found you, I can't let us go. You make me feel, you make my blood rush, you make me a better person. I think that I can finally fall in love, but only with you. I know I'm not perfect, and I never will be, but just let me be perfect for you" he said grabbing my wrist.

I turned to face him to see that his eyes were welling up with unshed tears and he was on his knees, he was actually begging me. I couldn't hold my gasp in. He rested his head against my stomach and I could feel the warmth of his tears soaking through my thin shirt. I could hear the soft sobs, I could feel him rumbling, he was crying. The big bad alpha was crying, and he was crying for me.

"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry Alura, I abused you mentally and physically." He cried. "I can't believe that I could ever do such a thing, I am a monster, and I don't deserve someone like you" he said through his sobs.

I just put my hands on his head trying to soothe him. I fell to my knees and took his head in my hands . I pulled his face up to see that his eyes were glossy. His lip was trembling, he looked like a mess. I couldn't help but cry with him.

So I did, I cried. I cried because both of my mate put me through pain. I cried because I haven't seen my family in months. I cried because I just wanted to have a mate that loved me, the way I know I could. I cried because my life is so fucked up right now, but I know people are going through far worse.

"I know Xavier, I know" I said trying to soothe him without breaking down in tears again.

We just sat there in each others arms for what seemed like forever. And that's when I knew my answer. I knew what would make me feel better, what will make me happy. I know how can make me happy, I know what to do. I can finally live life to the fullest, and hopefully with him by my side.

He cares about me.

I need him and he needs me.

So I decided,

I forgive him.

I forgive Xavier.

THE END