EXO Imagines

Chen

Warning: Angst and depression, if you don't feel emotionally stable enough please don't read this... Sadly it was too easy to write

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Have you ever felt like you don't belong?

Have you ever felt like there was no point in your life? That no one would care even if you died? Yeah that's me... Every single day of my life.

He was my only saviour... His name was Kim Jongdae. He saw me struggling, he saw me dying inside. He tried... Which is more than I can say about most people. I shouldn't have let him, all I did was hurt him more.

I was thinking about this as I picked up my razor. My parents abused me, my schoolmates made my life a living hell. I didn't belong in this world, Jongdae was the only person that made me happy. He didn't understand though... He didn't understand the scars and the tears and the anxiety. He tried. I'm done though, there's no point in him trying anymore... I've given up.

No one notices. I could be crying in a room full of people and if Jongdae wasn't there, no one would even ask. They would stare, they would call me pathetic and attention seeking. And I am pathetic... A pathetic excuse for a human.

Wait, I thought to myself. Finish his letter first. So that's what I did

Dear Jongdae

By the time you read this, you would've heard the news. I'm sorry, I never meant to hurt you. I love you so much, I just can't deal with this anymore. I can't deal with the sadness and depression and tears and abuse. I know you care... You were the only one. But I can't do this any longer. Goodbye, Jongdae.

I'll never forget what you did for me,
Ebony x

The tears flowed freely down my cheeks, too lazy to wipe them up. I put the letter in the envelope with Jongdae's name on the front of it.

Goodbye Jongdae, goodbye pain, goodbye life... Goodbye me

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I'm sorry if that was really depressing. I'm just not doing very well mentally right now. But I'll be okay

Thanks guys for taking the time to read this,
Ebony x