Shirōu Emiya/Archer Vol. 1 {completed}

Part 3: emotions

In the Mage medical room Rin explains what she knows to the professor. He asked for me to lay down for a check up. I lay down on the hospital room, the smell of  cleaning chemicals hit my nose. First he holds onto my hand to see if there is any pain he can absorb, when there is none, he checks something off the clipboard on the bench next to me. The professor injects something into my right arm, which catches me off guard, as I wince in a sudden pain I look over at Rin. She is anxiously sitting and staring at me. I smile before the drug kicks in and then I'm out cold. When I open my eyes I realise what's happened. This drug as put me to sleep and I'm now in my regular nightmare. But what's different is that there are two people watch me. It's Rin and the professor, "I don't want you to see this" I yell. I look around and know I'm in my reality marble, standing in front of me is Archer. The battle goes on the same as the memory, everything but the ending. Archer comes up close but then turns in to me now, he says "you're nothing, you're worthless, you will never be able to take care of Rin. You will drive her away, you'll kill her" he stabs me right in the heart. I scream myself awake, I'm still screaming when I sit up. Rin comes over and hugs me until I settle, I hang my head low, eyes closed and teary. "I know what this is" the professor states then continues, "Shirōu is stressing so much it is causing the part of the brain that functions emotions and dreams to mentally collide. The symptoms of the pain in your head is because you're human brain isn't completely used to your Magecraft ability through mental landscapes and such". Rin looks at me, "why did you bring me here?" I whisper I couldn't see her but I know she was looking at me with that confused expression. "I didn't want you to see that!" I snap at her pushing her away from me, I hug my knees and bury my face into my jeans. I start to cry uncontrollably, "I hate looking weak to you, you need me to be strong if I want to protect you from anything.....even if it's myself" those last few words make me tighten my grip around my legs. "Thank you professor" Rin says before I feel her wrap her arms around me as I sob. "I'll let you have some privacy" I hear the professor say then close the door behind him. "It's okay to tell me if you're hurting you know" Rin's soft voice fills my ears, "I love you Rin" I say quickly turning to face her then passionately kiss her. Rin allows this and runs her fingers through my red hair, and grips it in the palm of her hand. I stop as more tears run down my face, " I'm sorry I'm not strong" I whisper, Rin's hug nearly pushes me off the bed, "there's a difference between being strong and emotionless and being strong with a loving heart" she whispers back.