Your past does not defined you

No escape

Lilly
     I cried myself to sleep that night, the next morning I woke up feeling soreness and pain in between my legs and belly.

   "Lilly get your little ass out of bed, now do you know what time it is", yell my grandma standing in the door jam she was reaching for her shoes. I was so surprised that I fell out of bed onto the floor I tried standing up but the intensity of the pain was too much so roll up in a ball holding my belly.

   "Good, now hurry up and get your lazy ass down stairs", she exclaimed to me shaking her head, slowly backing out of my room.

    "Wait how did she not notice the bed cover in blood and the fact that I am naked", I thought to myself, I managed to push down the pain and stand up, I needed to see what was happening. As I slowly raise myself from the floor while grabbing on to my bed covers. To my surprise the bed was in a whole different covering and no blood.

     I searched on the bed for the dress I had on last night but it was gone. I looked down on myself only to find that I was in a new dress, this one was covered in little pink roses.

      I crawled back into my bed trying to make sense of what was going on, how was this possible, everything was different, could I have been dreaming I told myself but how could I when I remembered every second when he was on me, I could still feel him inside of me, I felt everything. I pull my covers over my head and started sobbing in to my pillow.

     "Are you awake sunshine", called out a voice, I removed my covers only to find Michael and Jason leading against my door. I pull back my covers over my head, "go away, please", I cried.

    "Fine I just came to check on you, it's not like you to sleep this late Lilly", Michael rely. "I bet she had a great night last night, so she doesn't want to leave those memories so soon, right Lilly", chuckled Jason

    "Shut up you asshole, let's go she does not want us around right now", Michael said. I peeked out from the corner of my covers and watched as they walked away.

    I am not sure how long I was hiding under my covers for because I fell asleep but was a waken by my grandma shoes in my head.

     "Get up, get up, get up," she kept on repeating as she hits me. I rolled around in my covers screaming out in pain begged her to stop, when she finally did I throw off my cover and began crying.

     "Grandma", I said, " Jason, he did things to me, he hurt me, please don't let him do it again", I pulled at her blouse.

"How could you say such a thing about your cousin, is it just because you don't want to get up",

    she yells at me yanking my hand from her blouse and goes back to hitting me with her shoes.

   "Oh my God, mom stop hitting her, shouted my aunt Kelly from across the room, she runs to grandma and takes the shoes from her hand. She sits on my bed and take me into her arms, "it's ok sweetie, it's ok", she pats my head.

    I began to sob on her shoulders " Ja-son, raaaa..", I managed to let out before I was silence by my grandma's words, "you stop it right now, you liar, little liar", and out the room she stormed.

     Aunty Kelly kissed me on the head" rest up, I will go talk to her", she told me has she wiped away my tears and left. There was alot of yelling and shouting for a good while, then there was a loud bang it was the door being slammed.

    Once again I drifted off into sleep but was once more a waken, this time it was heavy weight being pressed down onto my waist. I open my eyes to see Jason smiling at me, he brushes my hair from my cheek.

    I began to wiggle around, then I jerk my hands but it was tie to the bed post. He slowly raise my dress above my waist and put both my feet around his neck positioning himself in between my legs.

    "please, please Jason", I shake my head furiously. He only smile even more, he runs his cold index finger up and down my chest.

    "Jason", I gasp raising my hips, he took it has the perfect opportunity to force himself into me. "That's it my sweet Lilly", he behind down and whispered into my ears.

    I grabbed onto the rope around my hands and began to squeeze it,

    "I am your first and your last", he said bitting me on my ears letting me moan out his name.

   He began to speed up faster then he did before causing me to moan out his name over and over again.

    At first it hurt but now it felt so good I did not want him to stop, what is happening to me I thought to myself.

    He leaned in and kissed me I kissed back. This is a start of something so much bigger than me, the one thing that I will never escape from has long has I live.