Right Now

Wanting More.

Eh, I was still broken. His words kept running through my mind. Every minute for the past week. He humiliated me in front of the whole fucking school. I still had my friends, and I hadn't seen Louis all week. That was fine by me considering he used me. I didn't expect what was coming for me today. All I know is it hit me, literally.

"You Bitch!" was the last thing I heard. I blacked out.

I woke up without a clue where I was.

Katie was the first to notice I was awake.

"Hey! guys she's awake. Oh and you have someone here who wants to see you." she adds.

Bet you could never guess who that was. It was the boy who got me here in the first place. Go figure. I know he's gonna make all these apologies, saying he shouldn't of used me. I'm not going to fall for it.

"Sasha. Oh my god. I can't believe she did this to you. After she actually found out what happened between us, she broke up with me. She ran straight to someone else. Some that she was in fact cheating on me with. After I had sex with you, I knew I loved you. You just new to give me the chance that I want to have, to show you that I can be what you need. Please Sasha. Be my girlfriend?" He was almost crying.

"Louis, I don't know. It's really sweet that you came here, but you lied to me. I don't know if I can forgive that. I mean I can try but I just don't know." I say. "Although, my mom isn't going to pick me up and you know where I live, so can you take me home?" I add.

"Yes Sasha. Ill do anything for you." He smiles.

"Anything? You can't take back what you did to me! Wether you realize it or not, it hurts Louis. It really hurts. I trusted you and you broke me. I knew something was up when you wanted to talk to me after school that day. Just take me home. Now." I snap.

He raised his hands in the air like I was pointing a gun at him. "I'm sorry. I don't want anything to affect what we could have in the future. Ill just sign your discharge papers and I will take you home. Alright?" he asks.

"Fine. But please hurry up."

I probably snapped because my period is supposed to be here soon. I'm always in the worst of a mood when it comes around.

...

"Oh thank you so much for bringing her home! I heard what happened. I'm somewhat disappointed in you both, but you're both teenagers and it was bound to happen soon anyway." I knew what mom was talking about when she said this.

"It's really no problem for me to bring her home Mrs. Crowley. I mean I do really like your daughter. She's really sweet, intelligent and trusting." He states to my mother. He forgot to add completely unaware of what I've done to her an am going to do to her.

Like always my mother asks him to stay for dinner. By the time dinner was over, it was around 9:30. Louis decided not to go home. So he slept in my room. One thing led to another and then, when I didn't get my period a few days later, I knew what had happened.

....

Louis and I moved into his place. It was nice, big enough to have a child. Louis was just turning 18 in December. I was already 16. So technically we still had support from his parents. Mine, not so much.

Next day, he drove me to school, everything was fine, Louis and I were happy together. It's been around 5 months now. I ha a bit of an issue though. I still liked Harry, and Harry looked a bit jealous when he saw Louis carry all of my crap around for me. I got a text from Harry around lunch period.

H- Hey, can we talk after school?

S- Sure, I needed to talk to you anyway.

H- what about Louis?

S- It's fine, you have a car don't you? You can take me home.

H- Actually, I was going to ask if you wanna study for that math test. Like a study date, but as friends. Then Louis could pick you up around 7?

S- Okay, I'll talk to him about it. Ill text you in a bit to let you know if I can.

H- See you round(;

S- Alright bye(:

I wait for Louis to come meet me for lunch.

"Hey, what's up?" he asks me.

"Harry wants me to go study for our math test tomorrow. He was going to take me to his house and the you could pick me up around 7?" I ask him.

"No, fuck no. I-" he stops. "Just no. Okay?"

"Louis, if you're worried about me doing anything, I won't. I promise. You are the, or are going to be the father of my baby. I love you. Just trust me okay?" I look into his eyes.

"It's not that I don't trust you. It's him I don't trust." He says.

"Yeah, I get that. Just pick me up at 7 or if I want I leave sooner than that, I will text you." I say.

"Okay I love you. Be careful." He leans down and kisses the tip of my nose.

"Love you. Ill text you later."

....

I waited for 15 minutes for Harry to meet me at his car. Yes, I did know which one was his.

"Uh, hey Sasha." he says then pulls his bottom lip between his teeth.

I thin I want him to kiss me. My friend in my head, as I call it, slaps me for thinking this. I love Louis and I shouldn't be having these thoughts.

"So should we get going?" I ask unsure about my thoughts.

"Wait I need to do this." He came over to me, out his hands on my waist, pulled me closer, and kissed me. When his tongue brushed over mine, all I felt was passion, I wanted more. I mentally slap myself. Why am I still kissing him? I love Louis. I'm dating Louis. This shouldn't be happening, yet I still let him kiss me, and I just kept wanting more.