somewhere only we know ; kji

part 12 ; senseless

"Park Ji Soo?" I hesitantly said when he first showed his real face.

"You didn't even recognize my voice? Wow, Keiko, you hurt me, real time" he laughed again and put one hand over his chest, but I heard no humor in his tone.

"How did you know each other" Jongin finally spoke and continued to glare at me and Jisoo from one to another.

"He was my senior and mentor for a project back in University," I tried to keep my tone as flat as possible, in effort of hiding my fear. 

"Senior and mentor for a project? That's it? I thought we- we were something" Jisoo raised his eyebrows at me, his face flashed a glimpse of hurt but a second later it was back to hatred. "I drove you everywhere, I bought you things you wanted, I was there when you needed someone and at the lowest point at your life, I was there to calm you down when the professor declined your project-"

"You were my mentor and I didn't ask you to did things like that, you wanted to do it, it was not the lowest point of my life, and lastly, we were not together" I looked straight into his eyes and tried to keep the calmest facade on my face. He slowly put his gun beside him, not pointed to Jongin anymore.

"But you took the chance anyway, right? You didn't say no or decline the offer. After all those years, you used me, you're such a slut," he laughed and looked up. 

"Do not call her that" Jongin took a step closer and in an instant the gun was pointed at him again. My breath hitched and I tried to walk closer to him but all I received was a deadly glare from him.

"Do not interrupt my conversation." Jisoo's voice came out so deep I could barely heard him. "You- you enjoyed talking to me at 2 a.m. in the morning, but just like that, it all stopped, you got me devastated, I thought I was the one who did something wrong, I tried reaching out to you but you changed your number, moved out of your house. It was his fault all this time."

His gaze was back to Jongin, whose face was full of anger and hatred, no fear at all. I've never seen him like this before. 

"You ruined everything, I have trained for 6 years but then you came and took my place? That was just pure disrespectful," he smirked in the most evil way anyone could imagine. "I should have been the one that was first introduced to the public, I almost signed the contract, I should have been the one with the title of the lead dancer, not you." 

"That wasn't my fault, I was street casted and you know I cannot do anything about it, and about the position in the group, maybe you were not worthy enough, they saw the rotten part inside of you so they didn't let you in the group" Jongin looked straight into his eyes with deadly glare.

"You did this, they send me off after you debuted since my training program was over, you ruined my life, street casting is bullshit," Jisoo spoke to no one in particular while looking down to his feet. "You took my future and dream away and I'm going to make sure your so called dreams and future stop here."

Jisoo unlocked the gun and I heard two spaced gunshots.

The situation happened in slow motion but my brain was numb and I couldn't process things that happened right before my eyes. Jongin fell to the side as well as Jisoo. I pushed my legs to run and caught his body just before he made impact to the white tiled floor.

"No- no! Please no" tears were threatening to came out from my eyes. I was choking on air, I couldn't breathe, my ears were ringing, and everything blurred out.

"I'm so sorry" he said while pulling a weak smile. I really wanted to punch him for saying that sentence, I hate him so much for not fulfilling his promise, I hate him so much for not keeping himself safe.

"Concentrate on my voice do not close your eyes" I put his head on my thighs and tears were streaming down my face as I talked to him. I was so afraid of losing him, and I didn't want to.

"Say my love to the other members and send my love to your parents, I'm sorry I couldn't fulfill my promise of meeting your parents, please tell them good things about me" he reached out his hand to touch my face and I leaned on it. 

"You will meet my parents, and I will go on tour with you, I will be your hype man or whatever you call it, we still have plans tomorrow, you're going to take me on a dinner, remember?" I took his hand and clasped it in between mine. 

"I love you so much, you know that, right?" he said while brushing his hand through my hair. I took a glance to his body, the baby blue striped shirt he was wearing now almost full with deep red color all over the chest area.

"Stop talking like you're saying goodbye," I creased my eyebrows together and tried not to choke up in my own tears.

"I'm not, I'm just saying that I'm so lucky to have you in a short period of time, you made my life a lot better, thank you, thank you so much for that" he took my hand and clasped it in between his. 

"Help will be here soon, hang on, you will be okay and you will not go anywhere, we still have things to do, stop talking like you're saying goodbye" 

"I'm sorry I can't protect you anymore, if things went bad, I promise we will meet again" he pulled a smile that reached his eyes, his blinking motion got slower by the second.

"Where?" my breath hitched, I kissed his hand and put it on my cheek.

"Somewhere only we know" 

"I love you, so much Kim Jongin, thank you, you'll be fine, I promise" I brushed my hand through his hair and kissed his forehead.

I heard someone shouted my name from the distance and I looked up to search the source of the voice. I saw Junmyeon running towards me with a very panicked face, followed by men in suits which I assumed was polices.

I looked down and his eyes were closed, but peaceful. I tried to shake his body gently but he didn't budge.

"Jongin-ah" I called, receiving no answer. I couldn't breathe, my head felt like it was going to burst, my ears were ringing, my chest felt like exploding into a million pieces, and everything around me seemed to stop.

I bent down and hugged him, just like that, I know,

He's gone.