somewhere only we know ; kji

part 9 ; late night talks

We were back under the comfortable duvet with our arms wrapped in each other. The lights are off and we were staring at the dark ceiling. I have spent many nights like this and I will not get tired or bored with this, ever.

My face were pressed onto his chest and I could hear his steady breathing and heartbeat. Sounds that making me feeling much more comfortable and calm. Sounds that I am willing to hear forever.

"All I wanted was a single nintendo" he spoke out of the blue.

"Hmm?" I look up to his face, confused by the statement.

"My dad promised me a nintendo if I gave the audition a try. Dancing had been my passion but I never thought I would join some kind of agency that produces idols." He looked down and straight into my eyes, revealing universes. 

"How come you never told me this" I draw shapes on his chest as he continued his story.

"I didn't? I must've missed it then. I really wanted a nintendo back then because it was so cool and my dad out of the blue told me there was an audition going for entering some agency. He told me if I got in, he would buy me that. So I thought why not, right?" he brushed his fingers through his hair and let out a small laugh.

"I got in, he bought me the nintendo, but the irony was I barely played it because the busy training schedules and when I had free time I used them to sleep in." 

"Do you still have the nintendo?" I asked, and continuing to trace his chest.

"No, I gave it to my cousin." he adjusted his arm and tuck a hair strand behind my ear.

"Imagine if he didn't know that there was an audition going or he didn't promise to buy me a nintendo. I wouldn't be here, I wouldn't even be with you, and I would live alone in a small apartment struggling to find a job" He said while leaning his head onto mine.

"How would you even struggle to find a job with a face as beautiful as that, and please mind you have an extraordinary skill on dancing. You could be a dancer or choreographer" I softly hit his chest and raise one of my eyebrows at him.

"No you're missing the point" he let out a soft laugh.

"What point" 

"I wouldn't even met you and we would not be like this, so many other things could happen. I wouldn't know amazing people like Kasper, or Chanyeol, or the rest of the members, and the crew, producers, and a lot of other people who I cannot name one by one" he stares onto the darkness of the ceiling. "I realized I am so lucky to be living a life like this, I'm so thankful to have everyone, to have you"

Warmth radiates from my body, my heart felt like it was about to bursts. Thank God we were laying down, if I was standing up I would probably have to hold on to something.

"It was destiny then, everything happened for a reason, and I believe there's a reason why we are both here together." I looked up to him, even under fluorescent light his face still glowed. "What's up with every one and their real soft hours though"

"Well I'm soft every time so I don't know about every one else" he shrugged.

"Jongin-ah why did you choose me" I asked out of the blue, morning talks were always bring a whole different side of a person.

"Does it need reasons" he brushed his hand through my hair.

"No excuses, I want to hear everything" I demanded.

There was a short pause between us before he started to spoke up again.

"I was amazed by your intelligence, how you talk about things, even the smallest things that no one talks about, how your eyes sparkle when you talked about fictional books, how you treat other people, how you stick to your own ideology and do not care about people who wanted to bring you down, you tend to prove everyone who doubted you wrong, especially your so called high school friends you told me," he paused and put one hand behind his neck.

"You put other people first, but you know the line when to put yourself first, I love the way that you care so much about other people's being. Remember when we had our second date someone spotted us and followed us around, I didn't have the heart to tell her to leave and you came up with the idea to just confront to them, they were so taken aback with the action but eventually they left" he giggled while remembering the scene, their reaction was pretty funny though, when we walked up to them they barely made any sound and they barely talked.

"I love everything about you, you're so smart and good at everything. There are times that everything seems to crumble down within you and you didn't even try to hide it from me. You let me into your world and I'm so thankful for that. Thank you for letting me be the one who wraps his arm around you when the world seems to be against you. Thank you for being there for me when no one trusted me and supported me. I really am in love with you, Keiko" he turns and wraps his arms- well his whole body around mine.

"The feeling is mutual" I smiled into his chest, thankfully it's dark so he couldn't see my face that was as red as a tomato.

"My eyes are getting heavy, good night" he kissed my forehead and closed his eyes.

I look up and stare into his face. Now the tiredness was visible. Under the minimum lighting, I could still figure his dark under eye. But somehow he still looked perfect.

I was so thankful for this, for him, and for everything that had happened.