Feelings I (Completed ✅)

Lost

Have you ever lost something... Or someone... That even if you had something to cheer you up you are still broken inside. I lost my grandpa, and I even noticed, when I smiled after I lost my great grandpa my eyes lost some sparkle. When I lost my great grandma, more sparkle was gone, when I lost my grandpa, who was more like a dad to me, my eyes... My eyes completely lost there shine, they are dull. My eyes don't smile with my smile anymore. They don't light up. I don't have a spark in me anymore. Im just some broken little girl lost in the dark with no flashlight. Aimlessly walking around trying to find hope. And everyone I write still like this I feel stupid, like I'm everyone else online.

You know, when your mom or grandma asks what's wrong but you don't know how to respond because you have to many things going on in your head. Its like trying to solve an equation to save the world from ending. You don't know what to think, you can't think straight because you have to much going on. But no one knows that, because on the outside, you look like every other teenager. You walk by someone, you think everything is fine, but in there head... At home... Nothing is fine.

But people don't know that...

Only you do, unless you try to open up to someone.

But... Oh no...,
You try to open but everything is one jumbled mess because you have been through so much, it all wants to come out at the same time.