you are never here-bts jin ff

chapter 2

//your pov//

I fell asleep with jaehyun in my arms i hear a shuffling noise from the hallway. I open sleep eyes and open jaehyun room door i see jin coming this way " oh did i woke you up " he says " well um alittle" i say awkwardly " oh mianhae" he says and looks down " its okay but jin why are you home at 5am in the morning why didn't you stay at the dorm?" I say " i didn't want to sleep there because namjoon was snoring very loud " he says " oh okay well sleep well i will sleep in jaehyun room " i say and walk to the kitchen to get water " aren't you gonna sleep, in ou room ?" He says " uhm jaehyun wanted me to sleep with him since you, know weren't here for his big game" i say coldly "im sorry jagi" he says " jin i want you to be honest and please be very honest!!" I say he nods " are you cheating on me ?" I say trying not to cry " no im not jagi i swear for jaehyun life" he says i can hear his tone he is telling the truth but then i want to not belive him " then what have you been doing all this time why do you come home so late?" I say " i been practing and trying to keep you and jaehyun feed " he says "jin i told you i work to you dont have to force yourself and i want my son to be happy " i say and looking at his expression " i say "what do you mean ?" He says confused " jin your never home so im giving both of us a break " i say wondering if i regret my words or not "what!!!??" He says " jin how do you think me and jaehyun been all this time you are not with us did you,  know that jaehyun got an science and math certification did you know that he made the basket ball team?? And baseball team ?? Did you even ask him how his day went? No you just see him in that table eating breakfast or him sleeping in his bed did you know wen i read his diary it said he wanted hyungwon as a father instead of you or wish you were a better father did you even knew that he wanted you to sing and dance a song for his birthday?" I say spilling tears jin stays silent and puts his head down " no right well that's why i want a break jin because if you want to keep up your dream on being an idol or being a father at least for your son look jin i love you to much and you saying this to you hurts me alot but jaehyun is tired on not seeing his father there and being there for him" i say " im sorry " he says " no you don't have to apologize to me you have to apologize to jaehyun but now with words jin with actions if you want your son to get his attention and his love show him that you are there for him you don't have to for me but atleast show that love to him, " i say and go to the room " i walk to jaehyun room and lay beside him. I rub jaehyun cheeks i choose you my son eoama is sorry i say as i stare at my peaceful son sleeping.....

Tbc