Living a Lie

Time & Time Again

As time passes things start unraveling. My Mom still had no clue what her boyfriend mike had done to me, But this one day I thought I was being saved. I thought God had shown her mike's true colors. The day my mom first was told that mike had been touching me. We were all gathered at my cousin Congo's house watching a football game when my aunt dawn received a phone call from her daughter Kim saying "ma biggirl told poon mike been touching on her" and my aunt hangs up the phone and repeats what Kim had just told her out loud , I couldn't believe it , I felt like a weight had been lifted off my shoulders because an adult had finally knew , my heart began to beat fast , I was scared that no one would believe it , afraid that my mom would get up and hurt him but instead my mom fixed her lips to say "biggirl better not have said no shit like that"! And my heart began to drop i was so ashamed , tears began to fall I stormed out of the house and cried more. I wanted answers! I wanted her to believe me, my mother was blind of this happening right under her nose to her very own child. 😔 After that day I became more and more hurt as a child , I was depressed at a young age , it made me think all men where just Like him I wanted to go to my father for help but he wasn't ever around. I went to ppl my age and told them about what was happening to me it made me feel a little relieved that somebody knew , I wanted someone to help me but help was never offered. 😪