Reina Reina

Falling Apart

*** THREE MONTHS LATER ***

This morning I had some errands to run. I'm not in the game because Zy says he don't want his girl to be caught up in the streets or no illegal shit. But he did invest in me getting my cosmetology license and even bought me a storefront to open my own shop.

I had to go get some supplies for the shop so I was about a hour late. When I got there, Taniya still wasn't at her booth. She been late the past few days. I called her and she didn't answer.

About 20 minutes later, she walked in the shop and didn't even say nothing.

"Why you late?" I asked kinda with an attitude.

She hesitated. "Uh, I - I just woke up late. Thats all."

Oh, hell no. She hiding something. What could be so bad my own bestfriend could be hiding from me.

"Yo we gotta talk. Let's go to the back." I said to her. I wasn't bout to put up with lies and secrets from my own bestfriend.

"Wassup? " she asked nonchalantly.

She reeked of alcohol and I tried to hide my disgust when I talked to her. "Whats up??? You tell me. You walk in here late four days in a row with no excuse. You're obviously drunk off your ass. I know we're best friends but when it comes to business you gotta be professional just like everybody else in this motherfucker. You just saying fuck me and my place of business. Not to mention you all reluctant to talk to me nshit like you hiding something from me. Wtf is goin on Niya?!? " I was grilling her.

"First, calm down. And I didn't wanna tell you but..., " she began. She paused exhaling deeply, then finally she spoke. "I killed somebody, Queen. I killed someone. I haven't been sleeping because every time I close my eyes I have nightmares of the scene", she blurted out all in one breath as she started to cry.

This was my first time hearing of this. I was shocked and part of me couldn't believe what I just heard. "What the fuck you talkin bout Niya???"

She took a deep breath. "Okay. You remember Zy trap got robbed a few weeks ago. Well come to find out, it was some bitches that set him up. He handle the nigga who was behind the whole thing but he didn't wanna off no females and he also didn't want you to get involved with his street shit so he asked me to handle it and I did. Only problem is, I never killed nobody before that. I thought it was gonna be over with. Now I can't sleep at night. I be paranoid as shit. I'm going crazy, Q. " she cried in my arms.

"Look take the day off and go home and rest. We gone talk more about this later, just go home. It's gone be okay." Then she left. I was shocked and curious as hell about what she'd told me and why I knew nothing about this before. Between both Zy and Taniya,  I feel like I should've heard something of this before and frankly, I wasn't comfortable with them keeping secrets from me. Something was definitely not right and I was gonna get to the bottom of it.

The shop was slow today so I locked up early and went home. Thinking of what Taniya had told me had been bothering me all day so when I got in the house, I went straight to Taniya's room but she wasn't in there. Maybe she went out,  I thought to myself.

I went upstairs and laid down. The bathroom door was closed with the shower running so I'm guessing Zy was in the shower. Then, I heard some giggling. I paused as my heart sank into my stomach. I stayed quiet and still listening harder to make sure I wasn't trippin. Surely I wasn't cause I heard it again. Oh hell naw, he got another bitch in here. I guess he wasn't expecting me this soon and didn't hear me come in with the water running but little did he know he was caught! I jumped out the bed and banged on the bathroom door. I was furious!

"Open the motherfuckin door, Zy!" I screamed. It got quiet. "Open the door." Silence.

I twisted the knob, and it was already unlocked. When I saw them, I could do nothing but cry. Taniya  and Zy!!! I stood in shock. They both were trying to explain as they attempted to cover themselves. I put my hand up to shut them up.

"Fuck you Zy! Fuck both of y'all!" I screamed while tears ran down my face. I started picking up everything on the sink throwing it at them as I cursed them calling them every name in the book. Once Zy had managed to get on some shorts he grabbed my hands telling to calm down and trying to apologize. I broke down in his arms as he held me. I stared punching him in the chest. "Get the fuck off me Zy. Leave me alone I hate you." I pushed him off me and walked in the closet grabbing a bag.
I stuffed as many of my belongings as I could. When I went in the bathroom to get my hygiene stuff Taniya was sitting on the edge of the tub crying. The dumb heffa has the nerve to still be in here..and still with no clothes on. A part of me wanted to strangle her to death but at this point I just wanted to get the hell away from the both of them. I just grabbed my shit and was on my way. As I was leaving out, I heard them arguing and Zy telling her to get out.

Tuh. A little too late for that, I thought to myself.

I got in my car and left. Not once did I look back, either. All I felt was fire and pain on this inside, but I had to keep telling myself that they obviously didn't give a fuck about me, so why should I care about them. I tried to convince myself that I shouldn't be hurt over people that clearly had no regards for my feelings but the reality was they were the only two people I had left in this world. They were my family and I loved them so all I could do was cry and that's exactly what I did.

After hours of driving and sobbing, I finally pulled over at a hotel. I was drained of tears and very exhausted. Luckily, I still had Zy's bank card from when he sent me to the bank this morning. I shook my head thinking that this would be only the beginning of a lot of pay back to come to his ass. I checked in and went to my room. As soon as I got inside I flopped on the bed with my face in the pillow thinking about how my life had just went to shit right in front of my eyes all within a matter of seconds.