If You Only Knew

Dream On

Brian POV

It was later that same night. I just sat on the sofa thinking, I was lost in my own head with no one else around. Roger had barely looked at me since this morning let alone spoke to me. I hated this; I hated that I didn't feel I could talk to one of my best friends.

Do I feel guilty? Should I feel guilty? I didn't even know anymore.

It wasn't as if I had taken advantage of her, lied to her or did anything without her consent. I wouldn't do that. Is that what he really thinks? How could he think that of me?

"Are you ok?" a familiar voice snapped me back to reality.

"Oh, hi Freddie" I said quietly. He walked over to me and sat down on the seat next to me.

"Sorry but you looked very...troubled...here by yourself. You have a very worried look" he told me, his concern was touching; he played the 'grand' persona a lot but I knew he cared in difficult times.

"Yeah...well" I started "I just hate that this thing has come between me and Roger. Freddie? Am I a horrible person?"

"Brian" he said as he looked me in the eyes "you are NOT a horrible person" I sighed at him and looked away, I'm not sure if I believed him. He put a hand on my shoulder and added "in fact I would say you are one of the kindest, empathetic and nicest person I have ever met". I looked back up at him, taken aback a little by his unexpected words.

"Wow, really? I don't know what to say to that...thank you Freddie" he did make me feel a little better.

"It's ok dear, it's true"

"Well I don't think Roger would agree with you right now" I trailed off.

"Oh, he will come around" he said with a flick of the wrist "he will have to see at some point that these things happen and that his sister is a grown woman and can make her own decisions!"

"I hope you a right...the way he was taking before you would have think I clubbed he over the head and dragged he back here like a cave man or something!" Freddie laughed a little.

"Well, I don't think it was as bad as all that; I think our silly blondie just been protective of his little sister."

"Yeah...maybe you are right"

"Of course I'm right dear!" he announced and I couldn't help but let out a chuckle.

"I will try and talk to him later, see if I can straighten this whole thing out" I pondered out loud.

"I'm sure you will find the right words Brian, if anyone can you can" Freddie told me with a confident smile and a nod of the head.

"Thanks Freddie; I feel better now."

"Anytime dear". We both sank back into the sofa relaxing a bit and a few seconds of silence when by until Freddie spoke up.

"So...was the sex any good!?!"

"Freddie!" he really surprised me after we had such a sincere talk, I couldn't help but look at him with my mouth open a little.

"What?" he said with a nonchalant tone "we have had the serious talk now it's time to get to the juicy bits!" I exhaled with a surprised little laugh.

"I can't, it would be to weird...she's Roger's sister. What if we see her again?"

"So? If we run into her again what do you think I would say 'hi Claire, nice to see you and by the way Brian told me you were bad in bed!' because I wouldn't say that"