Everybody's expected to do something, at some point in their life. I've never been pressured into anything. I've never been told that if I don't get certain grades or join certain clubs that i'd have no life, that I wouldn't amount to anything. I guess It's just an expectation I put on myself. That if I don't finish school, I wont get into college. And if I don't go to college then I wont get a job. I'll be 30 and still living with my mum, unemployed.
I've not had a bad bringing up. My mum gave me everything I wanted and needed and always told me not to worry if things didn't work out. but I still did. I worried when I started getting more sad, numb. I worried when my hobbies weren't fun anymore. I worried when school started to become the worst thing I woke up to. I worried when I couldn't handle it anymore and dropped out. I still worry.
I had these expectations of myself that I can no longer fulfil. I was never expected to finish school or get a job, but it wasn't what anyone saw for me. I couldn't exceed my own realistic expectations, how am I expected to exceed anyone elses?
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RandomSimply a book where I speak my mind. Please don't read if you get offended easily, this book is purely for entertainment purposes only.
