Dark Paradise (Poetry)

The noise of silence

A moment of paralysis is what I feel,

Whenever reality kicks in.

The lump in my throat will never go away.

It makes me so, fucking ill.

I'm torn between the silence I ache,

To be alone and away from the crowd.

Or just me and my music,

But I can't handle the sound.

I can be alone,

But that doesn't mean I'm lonely.

I'm in this big, dark room staring at the wall,

Yet it's suffocating me.

It's quiet here in this room,

I could let myself think.

Yet the noise of silence

Is making me sink.