Losing your memory

Part I: Pilot (Edited)

Sometimes i think about losing my memory, when there is no past. It's the moment when you don't know who you are. Maybe you're feeling lost, afraid, helpless and lonely... that's exactly what happened to me, a year ago. I'm Caroline Forbes and Here goes my story...

*begining* 

At least katherine was dead and We were safe. It was all i needed and cared about in that moment. I sat on a coach at salvatore's house, beside stefan with closed eyes and i felt very comfortable in his arms. Everything seemed so normal. Oh, I forgot to mention... i broke up with my "amazing" boyfriend. Tyler didn't belong to me anymore and I was free like a bird from him.To be honest i felt happy, the reason is, that I needed to be alone for a short time, to realize everything, including all my feelings about some different things. Yeah, I also felt guilty, because I really missed all those memories which i had with him, when we were together. Each moment was full of calm, happiness and love, but that motherfucker chose revenge over me, over the girl, who loved him so much. Anyway, that's the reason for our break up. It's really strange, when my thoughts go to Klaus, after thinking about my ex-romantic relationship. I can say, he was just adorable man. There is no word to describe him. I know he had done many bad things to everyone, including me and my friends, but hey, everyone has their dark side. It took so long to forgive him, but then Klaus showed me his different side and for my surprise that one was kind and full of light. Then the ways he looked at me, his fascinating eyes were burning mine. It was too much for my heart to handle all that charm. So, that was it. When, he suddenly appeard in front of me in the woods and at least i was left alone with him, i told Klaus about my feelings and confirmed our secret connection, then everything happened on its own, time passed quickly and before I realized, his lips crushed mine. I hadn't think about future events, or, even about tyler and my friends, when I accepted his kiss. in the beginning it was a normal, soft kiss. I knew, that I had put myself into a danger, but as I said, I didn't care. When I opened my eyes, they met his green-blue ones and I felt excited, when they shone with passion and love at the same time, I was realizing how I waited for that moment, I touched and caressed every inch of his face. We both were smiling widely and I felt happy. I couldn't help but notice for the first time just how muscular his shoulders were, and how lush his lips looked. Then I let my gaze slip lower, to the rest of his body and realized how different it looked today. While those dirty thoughts were crossing my mind, he yanked me to him and covered my mouth with his in a hungry kiss. I felt surprised,  how those lips were such warm and soft. He tasted so good and my emotions were like fireworks. He slid his hands all over my body and suddenly I heard a voice, which announced me, that my shirt was torn apart. He was sliding his tongue from my mouth, down to my neck and Klaus started sucking on it slowly. that movement made my lips to make noise, like a low moan. Kissing lasted for hours, so when I went back to salvatore's place I was a little bit tired, but happy at the same time. for  life isn't a fairy tale, where someone like prince will love you forever. Maybe not for everyone, but for me it was on this way. 

he went and almost two months have gone after our first kiss. No call. No message. No visit. And then i thought: "stupid caroline, he used you. There is no love for him. Great, you are such a poor creature, honey." Was it hard, or not, I needed to look  at the truth, straight in the eyes. After a month, or even a year, I will forget about him and will continue my happy life with friends. I shook my head, to clear mind and took a quick look at stefan who had gone asleep. I kissed him on the cheek and carefully stood up with my vampire speed. i took my car keys with coat and went outside. Weather was cold, so I decided to go home and watch a movie, or, something like that. When, I was in the middle of my ride, i got a call from damon. I picked up a phone and answered it quickly.

"What now, damon? Everythings okay?" 

"Well, not really, barbie. Come to the grill." He dropped the phone and i changed my way to the road. After five minutes i was in front of the bar, sitting with cocky, damon Salvatore, who was drinking a glass of burbon, as always.

"Are you going to tell me what the fuck has happened?" I asked tired from waiting.

"Calm down, honey. It's just a witch thing. Papa hybrid called me for a help, we wanna go to new orleans. As soon, as possible." My jaw dropped down, but i quickly changed my expression with calm look and answered coldly.

"I'm not coming. Go on your own."

"Listen, vampires wanna get together. If you want to save your life and enjoy with it, stop regreting and come with us. Think about it." I forced myself, to believe in his words and after a good realization, i agreed.