beat the world

the beginning

How does anyone start a story that is full of hate and rejection, loss and self hate. How does a young 15 year old girl tell her story through words when it is hard to face it herself. i guess i will try my best in this whole thing I'm not used to telling people my story but I'll try to explain as much as possible.

My name is Hazel Martin I'm 15 years old i have red hair, grey/blue/green eyes i know right crazy. i have pale skin I'm about 5.9" in height i have a twin brother named Noah and two older twin sisters name Jane and Kasey. My mum's name is Beth.

So where do i even begin my story? well i guess i will just have to start from the beginning where it all started to fall apart the dreadful year 9

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"Hazel GET UP NOW its time to get ready for school" Noah shouts across the bedroom. i have never ever been a morning person and today was no different. Today was the first day of year 9 was i looking forward to it, no i wasn't, i have always found it hard to make friends ever since i was little i have never felt like i fit in and i guess that's what every young teen thinks right?

i swear in all the Youtube videos and books i read young girls always have a set morning routine for school whereas i don't i will do what ever comes to mind at the time so i roll out of bed and walk out onto the fresh carpet taking in the hot summers day ahead of me. the first thing i did was wash my face and put some makeup on now i know what your thinking am i gonna be one of those girls that say i don't need much because i already have flawless skin? well you're wrong one of the many factors i hate about my self is my face I've always been one of those girls that have a bit to many pimples so i tend to cover them up with as much makeup as possible. i don't have the perfect structured jawline that everyone dies for. over the last few years I've noticed even the tiniest things about myself and have grown to hate. How my boobs are too big or i don't have the flattest stomach i have a round big plump butt that girls kill for yet i hate it.

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I finally reach school which is a relief not because I'm at school but because i finally get to see my beautiful group of friends. i don't many friends as i tend to get picked on a lot but I'm okay with that this group they understand me I'm like the mother of the group i take care of them all and make sure they are okay and i love them with all my heart.

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To all of my beautiful readers that read this book it is my first proper book on here i hope you guys like it I'm sorry if it sucks i hope it gets better

lots of love xx Hannah