Too little, too late

Chapter 2

Before I met Shawn, I never knew what it was like to be able to look at someone and smile for no reason. There was something about Shawn. That night I told myself I had to find him.

The next week I kept my eyes open for him. I would go home every night and watch his videos again and again. I didn't tell my friends, I didn't want to hear then tell me I had no chance with him.

I still remember the day, September 23. The bell had rung and I was saying bye to my friends. My mom called me saying she was running late and would pick me up in an hour. I walked to the softball fields, were it would be quite. I sat under a tree and started reading my book. Then I heard singing, from a couple trees away. "Sorry, I didn't see you here." Those were the first words Shawn said to me.

Days turned into weeks, weeks during into months. Shawn and I met at that tree every day. Even though Shawn was the most popular boy at our school, he wasn't like most boys. He actually spent most of his time alone. I still don't know why Shawn decided to talk to me. April told me that he never talked to any of the girls at our school because they just wanted him because he was in Magcon. I guess I was different.

On December 15, Shawn asked me to be his girlfriend, under the tree we met at.

On December 25, he kissed me.

And then on December 29, he left for Magcon. That was the start of our troubles.

He was always busy and when he wasn't busy he was doing homework. Magcon tickets were selling out in 30 seconds. He started acting different. Our love was strong, but timing was wrong.

Shawn and I decided to go our different ways on May 9. For the first time I had found someone I hated leaving. I had found someone that I couldn't get enough of. I had found someone that accepts me for who I am and doesn't tell me I need to change. I think I had found someone who I was madly in love with.

Once Shawn and I had broken up, I became very upset. When I'm upset I shut myself down. I have no motivation for anything. I tell myself no one cares, even though I know some do. I think all the negative things I could possibly think. I give myself all the pain thinking I deserve it. I'm not sure why I do that, but that's just how I am.

This is when David become a big part of my life. He was there for me from the beginning. David distracted me from my feeling for Shawn. He was just a temporary fix for all my pain. I eventually got over Shawn, but that doesn't mean I don't miss him. I will never regret Shawn, or say I wish I'd never met him because once upon a time, he was exactly what I needed.

So you may be wondering where I'm going with this story. I'm almost there, to the day Magcon ended.