The Life {ON HOLD}

Everything

"It's just like the

Same scenario

Good for nothing

Feels like somethin' ain't right,"

--"WTH," Jhenè Aiko, Ft. Ab-Soul

3 Weeks later...

Aurora'

"Disey, are you ready?" I ask her, walking into her room, and see her still in bed . I smack my lips, "Disey, get your ass up," I sigh, putting my hands on my hips. With the covers still on her head, she says, "Mane, fu/ck that fufu ass school, I'm not going, so get yo' chicken wang bang looking ass out of my damn room," She such a cornball. But every since, uhh- Uhm, that day , she been acting weird . Especially towards daddy .

Shit is crazy around here . All she does is get food from the fridge and go into her room, only to be seen again in the morning . "Ass," I hear, and small, clapping hands. I look down to see our little brother, Jon Jon at my feet. "Boy don't be saying that," I pick him up.

"Where's Soso?" I ask him referring to our sister, and his twin, Soliel (So-lay)

"Her in da' room," He tells me in his light cute voice . Lord . You can tell that Jon Jon is a product of our father, Mr. Randell Cole . And that hair, Well we all have it . Curly when wet, and long . I guess it's cause we 3/4 Hopi Indian, Puerto Rican, and Jamaican . The Indian and Puerto Rican comes from our dad, and our Mommy, is full blooded Jamaican . I hate being mixed with all that shit . it seems cliche to me. She's from Kingston . Our daddy is from country ass, Arkansas . I hate it down there. Jon Jon has my mom's light brown skin tone, and eyes . everything else he gets from my dad.

Soso, on the other hand has these, light green eyes, and we have no idea where they came from . its weird .

I really think it's weird that Paradise is acting the way she is though . If I didn't know Any better, I'd say that something happened to her, the same day that Jody did what he did to me .

"Well, mommy's gonna whoop your ass," I shrug. "Rory, that's you, Now can you excuse yourself from my room, and take Jon Jon with you. I'm not going to school today, so bye,"

She says, with an attitude. I really wanna know, wassup with her.

•••

Paradise'

Ugh . I feel horrible. Every since what happened I just, I don't feel the same . I feel dirty, and violated, Y'know? I haven't told anybody, not even my mommy. I now view my dad in a whole different way . I don't hate him, but things will never be the same. I cant look at him without crying, let along, be in the the same room as him.

He took my innocence. And on top of that, I think I'm pregnant . I certainly hope not, cause if so, I'm getting an abortion. There is no way in hell, I'm having my father's baby .

After Aurora leaves, and takes the kids to daycare, I slowly peel out of bed, and go to my window. When I look out it, I see our neighbor, Daniel, waving at me, and flashing his killer, dimpled smile. Gosh, that dude is just...Words can't do him justice, but I can try to describe him.

He's tall, Has a really, nice body, He's a light brownish color, with cute, short, somewhat curly hair, He has a smile to die for, and these perfect straight teeth. He is so, fine to me, I swear.

He motions for me to open my window, and he slowly, walks from his house, across the street to our front yard. Did I mention he doesn't have a shirt on either?