The Life {ON HOLD}

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Ac'

I sighed as I sat on my bed. Rora just called and told me that Disey was really pissed off at me and on top of that she cussed me out! I mean I guessed I deserved it for everything I said to Disey, but I guess the fact that Rora did it made my heart ache. I only said those things to Disey because I'm afraid I'm losing her to everybody else. She's been very distant and lately I keep seeing her with that nigga Kevinn, not to mention Daniel taking advantage of the situation and coming onto Disey. Does anyone even know we're still together?

Everything that's going on is just taking a huge toll on me. I just wanna get away from everything. I stood up and grabbed my car keys and walked out the house ignoring the angry yells from my father. I don't even know why he tries with me he knows I hate him and I'll never forget what he did, ever.

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Paradise'

"Paradise is this true," I look up to see my mommy in tears. I nod, And she starts to cry even more, "Hey, Disey, I think it's just best that me and Kev, leave, We will talk to you later," He says, I pull him and Kevinn into a group hug, that last for at least two minutes and they leave.

"How come you never told me this?" She cries, "Me either?" Rory asks me. I shrug, as I feel myself on the verge of tears, "Mommy, I was afraid you would get mad at me, I-I just don't know what to do," She comes and hugs me, "Its okay, mama, it's not your fault, but me and your...dad are going to have a serious talk." She could barely even get the word dad out. I could tell she was more upset than anybody, Rory just stared off into space like she was deep in thought. Her expressions ranged anywhere from angry to confused.

"Mami, what am I gonna do? I can't have a baby right now!" I cried feeling the emotions pour out of me again in the form of tears. I wasn't ready for a baby, even the thoughts made me sick to my stomach. I don't want this baby, manly because its my dad's, but I can't just take a life away from the innocent. She just stroked my hair like she used to when me and Rory were little. She combed it with her fingers and looked me and my eye.

"Mama, you have options." She started and smiled as she thought to herself. "You can have the baby, and I can legally adopt it. Or you can abort it." I looked at her through teary eyes. "Whatever you choose I'll be right there to support you." What did I do to ever deserve a mother like her. She was beautiful and smart, which is a rare combination and hard to find these days.

Her hazel eyes glistened as the light reflected off them. "Mommy, I just-I'll think about it," I tell her. She nods and pulls me into a great, big hug. She pulls away and kisses my forehead, "Whatever is agwaan'  between the two of you, you need to settle it," Her Jamaican accent ringing.

I nod, and she walks out of my room, mumbling in Jamaican Patois. I sigh and lie back on my bed, tears still streaming. Why does dumb shit always have to happen to me?! Not Aurora though . she's just little miss perfect . Dance team, volleyball team, Well-known. I mean, I was even my boyfrie-well, I really don't even know our relationship status anymore, so I'm just gonna call him by his name.

I was even a second choice to Ac, because of her. They thought I didn't know . But, I do . I know alot of stuff about those two that they don't think I know, back to what I was saying, See? Up until, maybe last year, she was the favorite. And I still think they favor her more.

"Rory's this, Rory's that, why can't you be more like Rory, Rory, Rory, Rory,"

"Paradise, I just wanna say, I'm sorry. Are you okay?" I sit up and look at her, "Does it honestly look like I'm okay?" She shakes her head, "I guess not," "Paradise, I just wanna talk," She looks at me with sincerity in her eyes, "Talk then," I tell her

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