Temptation

ME MYSELF & I

ANIYAH:

I'm sixteen, and when I tell you I give no fucks, well let's just say there ain't no more juice pumpin through this heart nomore. Fourteen years old, that's the age I was when my mother sold me to a nigga for some crack. I remember the whole thing like that shit happened yesterday. My mom got me in the bath, she was so nice to me. Telling me how beautiful I am and what I mean to her. She even had a few tears rollin down her face...... that bitch should get a grammy award for that act. But anyways, she made my face up real good, we got in the car and she gave me to some man. That was the only time she ever told me she loved me, then she got in the car and drove away.

I turned around and out of nowhere, this nigga come at me like he tryna kill me. What the fuck I do to this nigga to get so much hate from him? He choked me damn near to death, threw me on the floor, and said to me, "Get yo lul bad ass in the damn car. NOW," and you know what the fuck I did? I got my lul bad ass in that damn car.

Sitting there in complete silence made me nervous. The scars on his hands with tattoos covering them made me fear him. We finally stopped, he dragged me out the car not sayin a damn word to me. Like this nigga ain't just choked me to death a minute ago. We get in this eerie, dark place where he threw me on the floor. AGAIN. I tried to get up, I heard a slap and felt so much pain from the back of my thighs. This nigga just wiped me, moving his arm he whipped me again as if he owned me like Ima damn slave.

I got up and yelled, "What the fuck is wrong with you? Over here beating me like I'm your damn beating pad, nigga bye."

I should not have said that bull shit. The nigga looked me in my eyes with fire in them, they darkened, and it scared me to death. I looked through them and felt his pain. It damn near burned my soul, feeling every bad thing that happened to him in his whole life..... CRAZY.

He grabbed me and wrapped me up in rope. He got scissors pressing them up against me, making me shiver as he cuts off my clothing leaving me in my bra and underwear. I'm thinkin to myself like, this nigga like that 50 shades of grey type shit. But my heart was beating fast...Do this nigga know this a crime??? He brought a cup of ice, taking one with his mouth he removed my underwear carefully placing the ice on my clit giving me pleasure. I felt chills comin from my pussy to my chest, the shit felt so good. I was in a loss for words and confused as hell. He rubbed my clit with the piece of ice. I felt myself becoming wet and I'm throbbin as hell.

He starts laughing as I try to resist, acknowledging how much I'm pleased. I'm ashamed.He unbuckles his pants, takin his dick out of his pants. I'm amazed at the size, then again he's a grown ass man...... I think. I say, "Please don't, I'm only fourteen!"

He reaches under the bed grabbing a roll of duct tape placing a piece on my mouth, feeling myself not being able to talk. I feel my skin crawling as he touches me, placing himself in between my legs. I move around trying to not let him enter me, but he grabs my legs and pins them down. He rubs his dick around my pussy, I'm shaken right now and in deep thought, not even really paying attention to him anymore. I think about my little sister and where she is.

As I think, my mind comes back to reality as he forces himself into me. I feel my body lift in pain, I feel a tear roll down my face reminding me of all the hurt I've been through. There's no way I can fight, I understand that now. As he continues to stroke in and out, letting out loud moans, I look him in his face staring dead into his eyes as I feel his pain all over again. I feel myself getting weak as he strokes faster. My heart beat skips a beat and beats slower, and slower, and slower, feeling unloved, dirty, and used. He goes harder making me cry and moan in pain a little, the pain hurts so much.

He got deeper into it as he wrapped his arms around me, holdin tightly onto my hair goin hard non stop........ I just lay there in silence he finishes in me. I feel his cum shoot from his dick into me, it feel as if my lower part of my body can feel everything; the air that's hitting the outside, the pain, and the throbs. The cum dripping off the lips, and the pain and soreness through my walls.

I start letting my tears out. They flow down my face and I'm not even me anymore. Not only did he force himself on me, he nutted in me. Feeling everything that just happened, I break down in tears. He walks up to me and slaps the shit out of me........ This nigga got issues, I look at him with fear in my eyes, he looks at me like he's trying to read me. He sat down and hugged me, rubbin my back and I was so fuckin confused... THIS NIGGA BIPOLAR as fuck. But I couldn't help myself. I didn't hug him back, but I did cry on him.

He wiped my tears and said, "You to pretty to be cryin, shut that shit up. Shit happens everyday, I'm sorry you got a crack head ass momma, but business is business. You were her payment, now get dressed and get the fuck out." Feeling my eyes water up, I had waterfalls comin down my face... My momma sold me, and for what? To forget about the shit she does everyday? I swear people ain't shit.

get dressed feeling my legs shake and in pain. My heart beats fast as I feel him stare at me while I whipe away my tears and get dressed. he walkes over to the door , opens it gave me his number and said "call me princess." i take the card trying not to make eye contact... I walk out the house wonderin where the hell Im at lost in words, mind, thought, hell everything, Idk where Im going but Im walkin in pain and limpin thinking about my life, with tears rolling down my self i judge myself feeling disgusting and not knowing who I am any more. feeling my heart slowly stop beating, I feel my body crash to the ground loosing sight of where im at I see shoes and hear footsteps but I loose control and just..... let go.