My dreams

Teenage suicide

I had a dream last night that my sister Emily, my dad, me, and my friend Trinity went on a vacation and we were staying at this hotel that this old lady ran and it had a pool. The hotel was built a little weird and it had a lot of glass. The elevator that would take you to the pool, was also surrounded by glass and if you looked out of the glass you would see the pool. My dad was out at a bar and my sister was down at the pool. Me and Trinity were about to get in the pool but I had forgotten something so on the way down so I asked Trinity for a room key and I started to head up. On the way up the elevator, I looked out the glass and wondered what it would be like if I wasn't alive. I was surprisingly neutral about it and didn't feel sad or mad or happy. I went to the room, got what I needed then went back onto the elevator. On the way down, I quickly ran through the glass, breaking it, and fell into the pool. I was disappointed that I hadn't killed myself. My sister Emily was the only one out there so she ran over to me and took me out to a garden. We sat there and talked for a long time about my previous actions. I was kind of annoyed the whole time. She made me act like nothing happened and we never told anybody that I broke the glass so nobody questioned me. She made me stay with Trinity in the room the rest of the trip because she thought I was going to try it again.