So I'm gay, I guess?

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Warning, there will be much vulgar language eventually.

Chapter 1. So I'm gay, I guess?

So where do I start? Well, I guess from the beginning. I'm gonna try to skip the unimportant stuff, to make this as fast as possible. It all started when I heard my best friend was gay, I guess. I was innocent at the time and didn't understand sexuality (I was a homophobe, now I'm gay whoops). I was really confused, tried to understand. Then 2 more of my friends came out as bi (was still a homophobe) and then I was more confused. Fast forward a few months and I wasn't much of a homophobe anymore. I apparently acted really gay and I caught wind that said best friend had a crush on me. Whoops, that wasn't smart. Michael, my best friend, also had a crush on some random person from Iowa. One of my favorite things is to mess with people. I also like flirting to accomplish that. Uh oh spaghetti-o, guess what happened next? Boom, flirting with Michael.

Fast forward months, I grew distant from that friend group of Michael and Abby, our friend (not one of the 2 previously mentioned bi ones). I ended up cutting ties, I still hate myself for that, and didn't talk to them for like 2 months. Learned Michael had a boyfriend named Alex. Few weeks later, I had the realization that I might be gay, so I contacted them.

Me: Hey

Michael: Yes?

Me: Why do you assume I want something? Can I not just say hey?

Michael: Usually that's a conversation starter. Nobody just says hey to say hey.

Me: Fine then.

Michael: ???

Me: How did you know you were for sure gay?

Michael: Well, I realized that I didn't ever feel attracted to any girls (besides when I "fell in love" with you know who)

Me: Was there a "aha!" moment or was it more gradual?

Michael: More gradual

Me: Do your parents know about Alex?

Me: How did you and Alex start dating?

Michael: No. And we met on the first day of school and mutually decided to start dating.

Me: Thanks.

And I also contacted Abby, since it was Michael and Abby who were my two closest friends. I knew they both thought I was gay, but I didn't know I was then.

Me: Hey?

Abby: What's up?

Me: The sky....

Abby: You aren't wrong

Me: And sometimes there's a rainbow there

Abby: ...

Me: Just like my life sometimes.

Abby: Are you coming out?

Me: No, I'm just confused

Abby: That's fine

Abby: Do you want me to help?

Me: Could you?

Abby: Are you attracted to girls?

And here is where I became very vulnerable, and I don't really want to share that private information. Anyways, she helped me a lot and so I  made a group chat with both of them, just like old times....I miss those days....

Me: When did you first think I was gay?

Abby: Like the last month of school

Michael: I don't get why this matters. It's not about us, it's about how you feel

Me: So have we established that I'm gay, or bi, or something?

Abby: Like Michael said, it's not about us. We can't tell you your sexuality.

Michael: ^^^

Me: So I'm gay, I guess?

And that's pretty much all that happened. I discovered I'm gay, and ever since then I've felt so much freer, and just better overall.

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