The Life of a Background Gryffindor

hey....

I know this may worry some of you, or think I'm going to drastic measures but I want you to know

I have depression

I'm extremely suicidal

So you may not have known this, or you might have, but its okay if you can't or wont help because I get it, its a difficult subject and anyway, I'm not asking for help.

My books haven't really been updated in a while because I'm trying to stay alive, I just had a kinda fight with my gf (more on my sexuality later) and I cried for 5 mins straight before and then after, yay.....

If you know me in IRL then heyyy, this isn't fake just so you don't make fun of me cuz you know, that would kinda most definitely make it worse. Its not a cry for attention or trying to fit in, this is a legit hard thing I'm going through. I even tried to jump off a cliff, literally.

If any of you are going through similar things, I'm sorry and I wish I could take away your pain because it really is horrible. If I could take everyone's pain then I would, it is truly terrible and those of you who are happy, be grateful because it is so rare for us guys with "issues".

This isn't exactly a help chapter or part or whatever, its more of a letting-you-know-if-Im-acting-like-a-bitch chapter.

I hope you found this new information interesting, I guess

Good night

P.S hmm, maybe I won't wake up...
(Update, unfortunately I did wake up)