ETERNAL - nctpink

yusoo: treat you better

In which they are friends.. Or not.

Song recommended while reading this: Treat you better by Shawn Mendes.

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"Chichu!" A person shouted my oh-so-famous-nickname so it really did catch my attention.

I know that annoying voice so much so instead of turning around, I acted as if I didn't hear him calling me. But being the usual annoying monkey, he didn't even bother to call my name. Not once, not twice but—ugh! I can't even count it.

"Chichu! Yooohooo!"

Ah this guy really?

I gritted my teeth then march my way into his spot. I'm so annoyed and I badly want to punch him straight on his face. He's so loud, naughty and annoying. Everyday, he'll always call my name. Literally everyday, he'll always tease me. Everyday, he'll always call my name here on canteen just to find me. It was literally everyday, he didn't skip any day without calling my name. I don't even have an idea why did he do that? I mean, we're not even close and all. We're not classmates, we don't have an acquaintance to each other either.

He grinned at me when I stood infront of the table he was sitting in. That's it! That was the grin that will make you abhor him so much. Even if he's not talking, his grin will make you get conscious. Because it's a grin that'll make you wonder if he's teasing you or no.

"Chichu, long time no see!" He said, still grinning.

"Long time no see? Oh really? So who's that person who annoyed me yesterday just to make his assignment? Is that a clone of yours?" I said sarcastically.

He scratched his nape.

"It's because I love you so much to the point that I want to be with you 24/7." He said with a playful voice. He even winked at me. It made me flinch so much.

I rolled my eyes and didn't talk again. I walked into my seat again just to escape from him but him, being so annoying and determined. He still followed me on my seat. Argh!

He sat infront of me and told me a lot of a story but I was too busy to hear his story. I was too busy from peeking on my phone every minute.

From: Jinyoung

Sorry. Can't go.

I sighed and closed my eyes, as if calming myself. As if telling myself that I shouldn't be disappointed. As If making myself believe that he was too busy with his studies and stuffs.

To: Jinyoung

Is that so? I understand :) Love you

Plastic. I'm really really plastic for telling him that I understand. I even put a smiley face just to make him sure that it was okay. But in my deepest side, it wasn't. I miss him so much. I miss his presence. I'm f*cking done for understanding him. I'm f*cking done for crying every night because of him. I'm tired but I don't want to let go. I want to make our relationship work just like before. I want to build it although it was already falling apart. Because it has a chance, though it was little. It's okay. Atleast it has.

I waited for him to reply again but I receive none. I sighed in disappointment once again.

"Chichu? Hey? What's with you? I mean you're spacing out and your tears was almost falling. Mind to tell me what's wrong with you? Are you okay?" I blinked a little when he said those words with a sincere eyes and concern voice. It was his first time being like this.

"I'm not okay." If I were brave enough, maybe I can say those words. But I'm not, I hate to admit that I'm not that brave for admitting that I wasn't alright at all. But I had too. Cause I really am. Too afraid to tell and too afraid to face the truth.