How bad do I wish that..
If that moment didn't happen in my life I wouldn't be in this cage of feeling.
Where different emotions swam around me suffocating me at its best.
If only those words didn't slipped out of my mouth i was far away from its curse.
If that one minute, one second, one moment was avoided.
I wouldn't had met him and my life would had been very different.
Where the sophie i used to be..
...
I am standing in front of the grave of someone I said I had missed..
But honestly I was happy I didn't meant to say that I missed him but it was just a mere excuse to escape from someone's spell again and to escape from myself..
I know that words cannot fulfill its duty as to remain you calm at the worst of your times but as you force it through your mind it came out as a white to deep lies
You're lying to yourself as those words couldn't give you any comfort.
I don't miss you Jumin I was thankful enough that you had died.
I was thankful..
That you're dead.. please release me..
The salty tears once took its place to cover my once clear vision..
