Amnesia

CHAPTER 12 - I Need You More Than Ever

I woke up, the cuts had healed somewhat. I did my morning routine like I usually did. It was a bright Tuesday morning, it was 10:49 a morning without Lance. Red was lazily rolling around on the carpet, I filled up his bowl too much and it over flowed, well fuck. I sat down in my chair and slammed my head on the table.

"I can't fucking deal with this!" I cried, I couldn't deal with this, I felt so alone, I just wanted to see him, that was all I want. I used I excessively to show my awful emotions of missing Lance. I needed to take my mind off of this, it was getting to me. Jumping out of my seat, I went to the park.

A small park bench was lonely too, so I choose that one to rest on.

"You're lonely too?" I asked the park bench, "yah me too" I saw a few little kids playing on the equipment, so happy and cheerful, they didn't have anyone they loved absent in their lives, I envied them. I shouldn't say that, I don't know their lives.

Hours had passed, I didn't move at all. People stared at me weirdly when they passed, nobody stopped to do anything.

"Why, Lance why did this happen to you?" I murmured, I thought of his smile and his laugh, his adorable expressions and everything he did that made me smile. They only made me frown and cry. I tilted my head up and looked at the sky, it was sunset, the sky was a beautiful orange.

"Lance would've loved this, he likes sunsets, right?" The sky was so beautiful and it felt so warm on my arms, it may have been the ending of the summer season, but it was still really warm. I sighed and looked out at a small kiddie pool in the park, the sun was shining against the small pool of water.

"Do you hear me? Talking to you?" I started to sing, "Across the water, across the deep blue ocean, under the open sky" I sighed.

"That would always be Lance's part, he sounds so beautiful when he sings." I heard a small click noise from behind me, I quickly turned my head and-