Ayye so we're on chapter 14 already. I really have no idea when to end this book so I have no idea when the end will come. I seriously don't want it to end tbh. Anyways I have nothing to say in this authors note because my life is boring as hell! Tysm for all the reads, it means a lot. Also I'm gunna start another Lashton book! Yay! It's called 'Lost Boy A Lashton Fanfic' so if you like Lashton you should go check that out. One last thing, there is another trigger warning here. I know I said that there wouldn't be many but now that I think about it there will be several. So please take that into consideration while reading this chapter and the rest if the book.
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*Luke's POV*
My mum wasn't home last night when I came in. I didn't worry about it until now. She's never home anyways so I didn't think anything of it. I'm currently sitting on my bathroom floor soaked in tears and blood. I don't know why I care so much because I shouldn't, but I do.
*Flashback*
I am woken up by a fierce knock on my front door. It's 8 in the damn morning. I slowly get out of bed and pad downstairs. I'm shirtless and in some old pyjama pants. I open the door to see a police officer standing outside. Why would he be here?
"Morning officer" I say squinting at the sunlight that has now invaded my house.
"Can I come in?" He asks in a grim tone. I motion for him to follow me and I sit on the couch while the officer, who's name tag says Robert, sits on the couch across from me.
"Your mother, she was killed in a car accident last night" He says softly.
"Excuse me?" I ask, disbelief clear in my voice.
"Your mother was killed last night, in a car accident" He says slower as if I'm mentally retarded.
"Oh" I gasp, my voice cracking. I can feel tears stinging at the back of my eyes.
"I'm very sorry" Robert says.
"Thank you" I say quietly. I don't want to cry in front of a police officer.
"If you could please" I hiccup "Please leave now"
"Is there anyone else to take care of you or are you eighteen?" He asks ignoring my request. I know what will happen if I'm not either of the two options so I decide to lie.
"I'm eighteen" He gives me an unsure look but if he has any doubt in his mind the thought doesn't reach his lips. He stands up to leave and I let him. I don't want to be around anyone. I want to be alone. Sure my mother was an asshole, a huge one. She was rude and nasty and constantly beat the shit out of me but she was my mother. I acted like I didn't care about her when she was alive but now I care more than ever. I know what to do. Probably one of the only things I can do, hurt myself.
*Flashback over*
Thats how I ended up here. I needed a release. I acted on instinct and grabbed my blade. My dads not here and now my mum isn't either. What am I supposed to do? There are 3 fairly deep cuts and about 6 smaller, shallower ones. My arm is bleeding heavily. I have been sitting here crying for 3 hours. I genuinely don't know how to handle this. I need someone to come help me. I decide that Ashton is my best bet seeing as I don't know how to contact anyone else in my family. My face is still hot with tears and there are still more to come, I can tell. I pull out my phone with a shaky hand and dial Ashton's number which I have memorized. He picks up on the second ring.
"Hey Luke what's up?" He says in a sleepy voice.
"He-hey Ashton" I say softly.
"What's wrong Lukey?" He asks now sounding concerned.
"M-my mum, sh-she d-d-" I can't finish because I begin to sob again.
"I'll be right over okay" Ashton responds and hangs up. I throw my phone at the wall but thankfully my case protects it. I could care less right now anyways. I just sit and cry for 10 more minutes before I hear the front door open.
"Where are you Lukey?" I hear Ashton's voice call up.
"I-in the bathroom" I choke out. I hear loud footsteps and then the door opens.
"Luke wha- oh my god!" Ashton nearly screams and sits beside me.
"You need. to tell me whats going on" He says.
"My mum. She died i-in a c-car accident" I manage to say.
"Oh Luke" Ashton says and wraps his arms around me tightly. He rubs my back soothingly and it helps me calm down a little. I cling onto him for dear life. Now I've lost both parents, what am I supposed to do? By the time we pull away I've stopped crying but my face is puffy and red.
"I honestly don't know what to say because I don't know what this feels like but I am ALWAYS here for you. Please remember that" He states. I nod my head and look at him.
"And why did you cut again? I thought we agreed that you would never do this again" He says sounding hurt.
"I'm sorry Ash, I couldn't help it" I say.
"We'll talk about this in the morning when you're feeling up to it" He suggests. I nod in agreement.
"Now lets get you cleaned up" He says grabbing my arm. I flinch but don't move away from him. This is going to be an exhausting night.
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I know this is a really short chapter but I seriously needed to update. I have 3 tests coming up and a trip with school so I probably won't post until like next week. Super sorry for the wait though. ilysm guys and thats for the 10.7k reads, it means so much. Comment your opinions. I still need to know whether to put the Malum in here or not. Please leave suggestions. Btw I'm writing this at 1 am so excuse any spelling/grammar errors. Happy reading guys :D
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