River Anderson

The True Meaning of Pain, not only physical but mental, true pain, is the best way I can describe it. For a boy bullied for his sexuality, his weight, how he looked, and how he lived. Was the end for him, River Anderson, I will never forget that name. He was a friend of mine, one of the few i have here and I cared for him. When I heard he had killed himself i couldn't believe it how could someone so happy and so outgoing even think of this? I went to his viewing yesterday, I heard his mother sobbing, I can still hear it, I can still hear her yelling "MY BABY MY BABY!" It's still is ringing in my ears even now. I went to his Funeral today I saw his mom leaning over the box her only son was in, and without a word just cried i saw her tears running down the sides of the casket I cried. I heard the sound of a mother Sobbing because her Baby killed themselves over something she could have over looked. He came out as Bi two years ago, his dad beat him within now and then. I was forced to move away from where I was from, LaFayette, Ga, to here Gainsville, Ga. I miss my friends every day but I try to make new friends. That's when I met River he was such a nice guy, he was so happy and so care free he knew just how to make a whole room laugh until they cried. It was September 28, 2017 a date that will not be forgotten for a long time. It was the day he was accused of sexual harassment, which was false, on top of that he had been bullied for some time. That day he posted on his Snapchat I will not be posting anymore... I firmly believed he was being grounded or something. I was wrong, he got home from the bus that day grabbed some twine from the garage and tied it into a noose. His neighbor was home and saw him tying it to a tree in his backyard, his name was Glen. Glen ran to River's house, but it was too late, he saw what no one in this world should ever see. His friend trying to pull himself back up and take the noose off, he had a change of heart too late. I learned the true meaning of Pain, it's not ripping someone's heart out for them to build anew, it's hurting someone over and over again until they feel the only way they can ever feel happy is to die; To leave that heart broken and shattered but still beating.