I don't know my name

Chapter 9

Summer 2k17 my last day of school was over so Lilly, Kelly and I decided to sleep over and celebrate. Lilly dad was pretty chill we pitched a tent started a fire and bought donuts. We lived stream we had four people watching ursual,James,Luis and some friend of Liam his user name jonsey.kid that night was exhilarating me and Liam got back on track and I really liked him and he really liked me we would spend hours talking and holding hands cuddling he was the best thing that ever happen to me even though are first kiss wasn't the best all the ones after that perfect there was one thing I was for sure about I undeniable in love with him. It was around midnight when we all made our way to the tent and Lilly's dad left I called Lilly's crush nate he picked up and told me to meet him at the junior high across the street from Lilly's and so we all did Kelly and Lilly were freaking out we rushed inside got all dolled up and went across the street we were all expecting someone to get friskie we walked around for a while and ya know what happens we hear sirens what were we doing wrong all we were doing was walking round a school at one am then i remebred curfew the police officer threatens us and toyed with us for an hour till we were let off with a warning and sent home we climbed in our tent and finally got to sleep at midnight and least Lilly did me and Kelly thought there was someone in the back yard till four in the morning when we realized it was just the fucking dogs and finally fell asleep we hung out allot softer that it came two weeks later when I got together with bron we were sitting on my front porch as I tested Liam we were in a fight and I was just done so I blocked him born and I decided to text everyone I follow so we did and then we reached jonsey.kid the conversation went a little bit like this. 

Me: hey buckey 

Him: hey 

Me: wanna fuck

Him: ya totally your virgin I'm not

Me: I meant duck hunting wait no I meant fuck wait no I meant duck hunting 

Him : oh well are you hey your pretty cute hope you don't mind me flirting 

Me: it's fine um ya

Him: do you have a boyfriend 

Me: I do but we're on a break 

Him: mean be my girlfriend 

Me: why not 

Him: seriously ok

We texted all night he kept bringing up how beautiful witch I'm not gonna lie I knew I was really pretty. He kept bringing up how much he wAnted to kiss me I would usually reply to me to or lol and then he said I love you I didn't reply my birthday was coming up so I invited him to my party at Lilly's house everyone was coming liam and Gracie  she was coming down from virginia they were a couple now finally jaden,jace,Molly,bron,kelly,Lilly,a bunch of people I didn't know and of course him and his friend Jesse and  I already knew jessie from school Liam didn't come for we were still fighting and he got with dru all I could think about that night was him the door bell early what the check I said um we did something they replied. I saw him aka chris walk in he was tall muscular a little bit of acne blue eyes and kinda hot but not at the same time he saw me and came right around and threw his arms on me right around by my boobs I ignored it maybe he did it by mistake as soon as we sat on the couch he started kissing me intensely on the first day I met him witch should have been my first red flag he did that and I did it back I've never had a relationship like that I felt like I owed it to him. When people arrived we sat by the fire and he reached his hands back panicking I scooted back a little till his hand reach my pants I sat there in shock should I say something no you stupid you drive people away your ugly I hate you all this ran through my head finally he pulled his hands away I could breath I felt sad  but I kept smiling soon everyone left and it was just me and him we stood up and he grabbed my hand and put my hand on his dick I pulled my hands away fastly and I said we better go find the group all I could think about was where's Luis I miss him what's wrong with me your such a bitch after that they can back and Chris pulled his hand back on my pants and began to do the same thing before I tried pulling away but he leaned back more I don't know why I was so uncomfortable why am I so dumb but now I owe him but then theres Luis finally they all left I felt like I was in a nightmare.