We broke up. He was mad because I didn't say it back but what did he expect? I'm only 14. I don't know what love is... not at all Is love wanting to talk to someone all the time and wishing I could hug them or just be with them? Is love what I feel when I miss him and I just want to call him? Is love when I want to call him while we're texting just so I can hear his voice? Is love wanting to listen to him sing all the time no matter how bad or good he is? What is love? Is that what I'm feeling? And am I heartbroken? I miss him. I always want to call and make sure he's okay. I want to hug him and kiss him. I want to be with him. I'm sad when I see him in the halls with his friends. He never looks sad. He actually looks happier. And when I'm in the library and I hear his laugh I just stop and listen sadly. Is that heartbreak? Is this emptiness heartache? What is going on with me? Why am I like this? Ringring I look at my phone and sigh before answering. "Madison it's been a couple months now. It's summer time and it's your birthday. Get your doodle up and we're gonna go to a party." Caycay says as soon as I answer. I sigh before nodding and realizing she can't see "Sure thing." "I'll see you in two hours look hot there's a guy I want you to meet." I say bye and look at my clothes. What am I gonna wear? I finally decide on a pair of light overalls paired with a white lace shirt, and a black and white cardigan. I put on some black short heel type shoes and I grabbed my black messenger type bag and put my notebook in there with some paint and a few pencils and paintbrushes.
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I'm not a artist, that's for sure but sometimes I wish I was so I bring this stuff and I try sometimes. After I pick out the outfit I only have a hour and a half to get ready. I take a quick show then dry my hair. After drying my hair I straighten it. After that I put on my outfit and just put on some mascara. By the time I'm done caycay is knocking on my door. I walk outside and she's with Mario. "Hey Mario." I say sitting in the passengers seat before caycay can steal it from me. "Sup dude." He says. Then he looks at me for a while. "You look good." I look at him before nodding. "You don't look too bad yourself." After that we are on our way. When we get there I immediately notice this guy. He's really cute. He's cuter than anyone I've ever seen. We get out of the car and caycay walks up to him. They hug and she waves me over. I come over and he sticks out his hand. "I'm Ethan." He says. "Madison." I smile. "You're hot." He says. I laugh before shaking my head. After that I talked to him the whole night. He was pretty cool. His favorite color is blue. He has a little brother who is apparently super cool. He has a sister named Julie who's from Germany. He's colorblind and diabetic. He seems to have a lot of flaws but somehow to me he seems perfect. Maybe coming here tonight wasn't such a waste...
Okay I am so sorry. I really love you guys because you all give me so much support and it's crazy because even though I don't get the most reads I still get a bit and it makes me so insanely happy when you guys ask me to update. I've just been really busy lately. I've been study for the psat and I've got softball. And I think this might be the end. If you want to continue this book dm me and sometimes I might write bonus chapters. I know I suck I didn't even write twenty chapters and I'm sorry. But just let me know if any of you want to continue this and yeah love you guys sooooooo much -Mads
