Love?

Distant Clarke POV

Bellamy has been distant recently. He has been ignoring
me like the three little word that he said didn't mean a thing then we were walking because I made him. I stop dead in my tracks he turns and looks at me then he pushes me against tree and starts to kiss me, it was soft at first but the it got a little more rough then he started to pull up my shirt that's when I slapped his hand away. "Why" I said "why what" was all he said.

"That's it I'm tired of it you completely ignore me then you want to have sex! I don't get it you said you loved me and the you ignore me for weeks! If you can't tell me whats wrong then your not worth my time. I get it I really do if this is about O then fine to tell me about it, if this is about family okay whatever my dad got floated for doing what's right and because of my mom he's dead I have forgave her that I my not have a complete family but I still know enough that I care,  please help me understand why your doing this it's like you don't care! " I said with tears pouring down my face

"I do care,  you think is easy being away from you I love you that's why I doing this it hurts me just as it hurts you but every girl that i get close to dies and I don't think that I can take losing you to!" He yelled back

Screw this

We head back to Arkadia in my room I push him against the wall our lips meet we started making out, his hand cups my cheek I loop my finger around his belt buckle I start to slide my hand up his shirt, he does the same to me.

Next thing I know I wake up with someone's arm around me I get jumpy until the person says "morning princess" he said groggily. Bellamy.  Oh no, no-no NO! I mentally slap myself.  He saw the panic in my eyes " hey what's wrong" he said smoothly\gently I shed a tear "what's wrong princess" he asked worriedly "this can't happen again" I said through tears "what why!?!? So it's you that's making the one night stands now" he yells at me but not loud enough for someone to hear. I let out a loud sob, he immediately changes his expression but I can tell he's still mad. "Fine but this,  whatever this is it's over" and he grabs he clothes a walks out after that I was quite I stayed in my room only leaving when someone needs me I barely ate anything,  every now and then my mom would come and visit me but she has more important things to do then me.

I finally walked out and I got a tap on the shoulder "where you been. huh? hiding!" A girl shouts at me shit I think.  "Raven" I say unwilling to argue then I feel a slight pain in the side of my face a couple more in my side then my stomach before I grab her fist  from throwing another punch. As I start to put pressure on her fist she trys to throw another punch I grab her arm "what you going to kill me like you killed Finn! " she yells at me as she spits in my face "so that's what this is about.  You think I wanted to hurt Finn I could have killed lexa but I didn't, I murdered Finn in cold blood you think that I wanted to do that I didn't I can't help that you loved him but you know one thing that I learned from all this is that love is weakness and nothing else!!" I fired back with a stone cold expression. I had drawn crowd and i tried yo leave but someone grabbed my arm.