Love?

Hard to love

Bellamy. I thought before I yanked my arm away to run out the gates.
I run for about fifteen minutes straight before my legs gave in a I collapsed and I fall near a tree and sit there alone with my thoughts then I hear "clarke!?!?" Bellamy. I thought. Fuck it I have no where to run I'm lost by the water fixing to cry my eyes out then I saw something shimmer in the dirt I pull it out and it's a blade I sit there and debate whether or not to end it all I said screw it so I pull up my sleeve and gently slid the blade across my skin I started at the top of my fore arm but with each cut I got deeper and deeper until I was done and blood started to pour down my arm I was just fading away the I see black spots but before that I saw a blur of a person I heard "CLARKE NOOO!?!?! " I feel someone pick me up then black out

Bellamy POV
I was running out of the gates to find clarke and tell her I'm sorry but in stead of a nice image I saw a pool of blood and her wrist I was scared, i yelled but I don't think she heard me but I picked her up and started running with Clarke's limp body still bleeding I ran to medical busted open the door when her mother Abby was asking what happened the she looked down at Clarke wrist and she said "oh god. We need bandages and lots of them and we need blood!!! " I was told to get out of the room

I walked out and people were asking what happened then one voice caught my attention "raven!!!" I yelled in a low deep voice and people made a path for me to get her "yes" she said in a scared voice "this is your fault if you would have just left it alone clarke she would not be on that medical table about to die!! "I yelled at her and spit a little as well "I'm sorry"she said in a scared voice "you don't have the right to say sorry and if she doesn't make it then you'll have the death of the girl your little finny boy loved, if she doesn't make it I will personally kill you"I spat

Abbys POV
I don't know what to do, this id my daughter. Wait shes flat lining no no no 123 clear,  123 clear,  123 clear.  I stumble back as everything go silent "no" I whispered as tears start to pour down my face I am escorted out

Clarkes POV
I'm cold I don't think I'm breathing I hear foot steps crying and bellamy? Im in a dark room and I keep trying to run,  to walk but it's nothing just then two doors appeared​ one is a solid white door with paint chip taken out of it next is clean sleek and polished brown door the doors open the white one shows a man with black hair and a little older woman with brown hair there both crying their eyes out and the other one it has a man with black hair a little younger then the other one and a old man wait "dad,  finn" I take a glance at the other door hold up "mom bellamy" oh my god this is life and death I love my dad and finn but I can't.  I walk through the white door. I'm awake up I'm alive I'm immediately brought to tears for what I did I hear bellamy crying wait I know he'll want revenge I have to stop him.

Bellamy POV
I'm crying debating weather or not to kill raven the I hear a soft voice Clarke's everybody gasped I turn around ands her it's really her I run to hear and rap my arms around her waist and my lips land on hers  it didn't take long before she kissed back. Who would have thought when we got sent to earth that I hated Clarke Griffin, but now I can't stop kissing her.  I love Clarke Griffin. And right now I'm willing to shout it from the roof tops.  

In between kisses and I whispered "how about we try this again"