Mr.Teacher! [Updating!]

Reasons Why I'm Late at Publishing

Hello dear readers!~
My,my...how long have it been since my last update huh?

Well,never mind! ;)

I came here to give my gratefulness to all of you guys that are awesome!Thank you so much for the wonderful followers that I have,your guys comment and voted,it kept me from having negative thoughts of myself and anxiety.

It's not like I don't want to update the story and publish it,but lately...I've been under depression, my personality change to quick and some of my friend asked me "You okay?" Like heck,they really should asked me that cause I've been laughing too much and emotions changes quickly.There are some jokes that people don't get it but it's like I'm the one that really think it's funny.So they probably think that I'm insane?lololol

But,I don't mind

Since this is how myself are,I'm carefree and really don't care when people judge me or badmouthed bout me cause I'm that kind of person,my junior used to said to me that when she looks into my eyes she only saw loneliness and that time I really cried.When it came to things like that I cry easily,lol I'm a crybaby when I was a kid.I got bullied a lots,when I'm around 4-5 year old girl back then,it's really hard.They ignored me like I'm not exist and I couldn't bring myself to tell the teacher, all of them are way more stronger and bigger than me. I've been keeping this from myself for 14 years,none of my friends know bout it cause they probably will think that I'm just an attention seeker.Well,I never care.In the end,I didn't told them.

I used to be a loner back then just because I'm smaller than anyone at my age and fragile.When I'm in primary school,my friends tend to moved away,transfer to another school,leave me alone so yea after all none of them stayed.Too much things happened then it stopped.Guess what?It happened again when I'm at 8 and 10 year old,I don't wanna tell bout it.People think I'm fine from outside cause I'm fucking smile happily and laugh carefree like I'm the happiness and luckiness person to them but then...have they try to ask my conditions?If I tell a story about my life without typing I probably have cry right now.I don't even want to remember all of it,I kept repeating to myself 'Just smile and keep cool' and it just works a bit.

Since I'm in high school,its getting more worsen,family problems,school,myself and some people.I also lose my mind because of that yet no one noticed it.It's confusing me that time,I want people to help yet at the same time I want them to stay away from me.I feel disgusted, disgusting from being useless, dumb.At that point,I lose control of myself.I finally became more emotionless.

When I thought about it one more time,I couldn't help but to think "What will I become?How can I help my family if I keep on like this?" I almost commit suicide, lol I know that A shouldn't tell my life to anyone cause some of you might think "You shouldn't tell people bout these" "Hey,stop talking about your life" "You're not the only one that suffer!" "There many people outside had more misfortune than you,more worsen than you" yea,I know all of that but shouldn't community help when it comes to people like that?They should take notice of their behavior.I always keep on positive thinking after what happened in this month and I know what's the right choice I should do you told myself not to gave up,now here I am.

Still living,breathe in this clean air although people these day likes to judge others but hey just be yourself and keep positive, ignore those motherfucking people,don't let their words,action destroy whatever in you mind,heart and life.You are yourself,I'm telling this cause I know some of you are having the same problems although our problems are different from each way but it can be solve.

I hope that I can still continuing on publishing more fiction in the future and I hope people will love it cause writing is one of my favorite hobbies,I like to make people happy by reading my fic and fanfic.(almost type fabric lol)

Anyway,I have a few more books and request from your people that I haven't publish.I'm planning on continue it after finish with my exam.My last high school life.So,I'll see you guys again.May you guys will always stay health and happy.This is freaking long thing I ever wrote beside fic and fanfic.This one is also a new book~I'm glad that you guys are still can I patient with me,I am really sorry for being such a bad author and person.

Goodbye!