So there is a lot of things about me that no one knows about. Not my friends, family or mom. But on wattpad no one can really hurt me. None of you even know what I look like , and only a few of you have seen glimpses of my personality. So I feel like I can vent all of the thoughts I keep to myself on here.
I'm not that confident
In real life , I act like I have everything together. I am at fault for doing that on wattpad as well. Truth is , I'm not proud of myself, and I haven't accepted myself. I am always terrified of my awkwardness and coming off as rude. When I am awkward in real life , I play it cool and turn it into a joke.
I have anxiety
I get panic attacks. I hate social outings because I am so terrified I'll have another attack in front of everyone. Now these don't happen too often for me but, they do on occasion.
I don't know my own sexuality
Yeah. I have no idea whether I'm straight, gay, pan, bi , or even Asexual. There is so much pressure on me to know this but I don't. I'm afraid that if I am gay and I come out to my friends that they will hate me . I try to be as supportive to all minorities because I don't even know who- or what sexuality- I am.
It has been good to type this out but I have no idea if I'll post it. This is all really personal for me and I don't want anyone to treat me differently. I am getting a sick feeling when I think about the fact that people will read this. I don't want to post this but I feel as if I need to for myself. So here it goes. Either this will be posted in a second or you guys will never see it. 3... 2.....1.........
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Randomness
DiversosThis is going to be a book of all of my random thoughts and whatever. I take questions and I will answer them. If you are looking to read a story, you are in the wrong place. I love PJO and HOO and Harry Potter. If you read this deception, comment...
