Destiel: The hidden demons

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Dean's POV

It was a normal day at school everyone seemed so happy, so kind, so perfect but I knew they were having a battle between them and their demons. Everyone has their own demons but they are hidden with a mask. I don't even know how thick mine could possibly be, it's like a bedrock wall no one can crack it or take a quick peek. Can they even hear me screaming ? Are they deaf?  Is this all a dream? Is it in my head? The constant need of you is killing me. It's like I'm drowning, or there's no oxygen left in this world. If I listened to the angel's up in the sky I would have been safe, and the devil wouldn't be whispering in my ear.

I can't do this anymore, I need - I need you now but no, I'm in the middle of class listening to the silent tics of the clock. Tick tock tick tock. As I watched the time tick by I was slowly getting closer to you. I know I need to stay away but you are so much fun. You bring me great joy but once you leave, the memories come flooding back. I can't take it anymore.

Just as I was standing up ready to burst out through the doors and race to you, I was stopped by the sound of a bell. The bell telling me it was ok to race to you without anyone suspecting me. Little did I know, they already were.

I tried not to think about the painful ride home as the voices of my demons got closer. I grew more anxious, I could feel everyone's eyes on me but I ignored them. I should have known someone knew something, but I needed you. I could only survive so long without you. but you still haunt me even when I'm with you. I should shut you out, but it's so hard, I can't remember why I agreed to you. I should have left, I wouldn't be in this mess.

I can't go back, it's too late you have ruined me, but you helped. I'm so confused, you made a prison in my mind that I can't break out of. Why won't you let me be free? I never asked for THIS pain. but you gave me it anyway. I wanted to be free of my life but I only dug myself in a deeper hole.

Can you end me or is it too good to be true? It is, isn't it? I guess you warned me "try me one and I may let you go but try me twice and ill own your soul." I never understood but I can finally see what you have done to me. What are you? no one ever told me, or I didn't listen. Was I alone or was someone with me? I can never remember please tell me what you are. I'll never put up a fight. Spare me the pain and you will never have to leave me.

Please help me.

God, everyone must think I'm crazy because someone has surely noticed how on edge I am all the time. Or am I really just that invisible. NO, I can't think about this.

I didn't even realise that my friend Castiel, was talking to me.

"Dean are you even listening" he said practically screaming in my face.

"Sorry, I zoned out, can you say that again?" I mumbled, loud enough from him to hear.

"Well I said, you're gonna get suspended if you don't start showing up for detention"

Oh god I completely forgot, I knew I was forgetting something. "Sorry, I'll be there tomorrow"

"We don't have school tomorrow, it's Friday"

"Oh whoops, I thought it was Thursday" I quickly stated "I need to get going I'm gonna get yelled at by Sammy if I don't hurry up"

"Ok, I'll come by later so we can practice our English speech, unless you forgot that too" he said clearly irritated.

"No of course not, bye" I quickly said before heading off to my baby. (his car, a 67 Chevy impala)

A/N: first fanfiction don't hate on me cause idc how bad it is