Questioning Fate

Prologue: An Introduction

Daydreaming is sort of my thing.
Well, at least, that's what some people like to refer to it as.
Personally, I like to think of it as letting your mind wonder. And not in an unfocused, distracted way.
No. I think of it as a way to explore, wonder, and see things in a whole different perspective. And maybe even come up with a different ending to your story.
You may be thinking, "Ohh, she has an imagination."
No, I mean this in the least creative way possible.
When I "daydream," I think about my life; the past, present and future.
But mostly, I wonder about the past and how the hell I ended up here.

Of course, it's pointless to ask all these questions. It's not like someone or something is gonna pop up out of nowhere with all the answers, like, "Here you go! No more wondering for you!"
If it were that easy, I would've moved on by now. There'd be no more pointless wondering for me. But unfortunately, I'll always think about what would've happened. I'll always make up a different ending, because let's face it, my past will always haunt me.

But then again, that's life. And life does suck. There's nothing, whatsoever, that you can do to change that. There are choices in life and it's up to you which path you'll take, whether it may be good or bad.
And I know, there's not always going to be that "good" option, leaving you to choose between two choices that could change your life majorly.
But, here's the thing. Of those two choices, you have to choose which would be the best for the situation.
It's the trick to outsmarting the obstacles that life throws at you.
I've learned this in life, because although you might not be in the greatest of situations, you can still make the best of them.

To get to the point, my life is so confusing. It's messed up even. Some people say my siblings and I are "miracles" or we're just "strong." But in all honesty, we're just a few of the many players in this game called life. We just experienced the bad things a little earlier than some. It is hard, but everyone has their own obstacles to face. Some are harder than others and some much easier.
So here's my crazy ass story about life. The reason why my mind loves to wonder, and much of the reason why you're reading this right now.