Under His Bonds of Chain

Chapter 1

First day of school freshmen year.

A feeling of insecurity arises. What if i don't know anyone? What if i cannot find my friends? What if i get lost? What if people bully me me mistaking me for someone else? What it, what if, what if. All i can think about is what if, but i cannot help it. 'What if' thoughts races through my mind miles per second. I cannot control it, i cannot stop it. My heart starts to races parallel with the 'what if' thoughts racing in my mind. They are trying to compete against each other, pushing to their limits to become faster than the other. The world starts to spin around; i feel disoriented. My breath joins the race rapidly catching up to the speed of my thoughts and my heart pulse.

"Watch it!"

I run into someone, making the whole episode worse than it is.

"S-s-so-sorry"

Why did i sound like i was dying. I felt like the world was closing in on me. I feel like i am dying but i am not dying, i know it.

I take a sudden right down a small hall i have never been in. I don't know where i am going but i need to get away from here. I need to run away far from here but i don't know how. I take another right, leading to a smaller hall with only one classroom in this hall. Nobody is here.

I press my back against the wall, letting my knees collapse on me dropping me to the ground with a loud Thud! My hand come up to my face and cover my eyes to prevent the bright harsh light from penetrating into eyes. They are warm and moist. Tear are forming at a immense speed and falling down my face.

Great first day of school and i am already crying. How pathetic am i? I am such a loser. How is anyone friends with me.

"Tyler are you okay?

Fear ran through me, i quickly jumped to my feet and threw my hands preparing to defend myself. With the sight of who it was i dropped my hands, relaxed that is was nobody but my harmless friend, Austin. Seeing that it was Austin my eyes started to heat up again making them moist and thick with salty water. I began to weep. I let it all out not trying to prevent any from stay back. My arms flew up and wrapped around his neck pulling him in tight. Austin was the perfect height for someone to cry on.

"I don't know what happened. I was panicking about school and then everything just came crashing down. It the first day of school and i'm already crying. I am such-"

"Tyler calm down, you are not a loser. You are amazing. Just breath and we'll stay here until you calm down. It's fine if we're late."

The instant sound of Austin soothing voice instantly began to relax me. His voice was sweet and calm; he knew what to say. His voice was like the sound of wind gently blowing through the tree.

After about ten minutes of standing here, the bell rang, startling me into a jump. That was the late bell. With the realization that class has started, i let go of Austin.

"We should probably go to class"

"Do you want me to go with you?"

"No, it's fine You should be going to class, but thanks for asking Austin."

Once we made it to the main hall we separated. I turn right while Austin turns left. There were no goodbyes exchanged. We just left.

I start to make my way to my first class. Orchestra. As i walk i make my short journey to orchestra, i begin to fix myself, drying the tears and brushing off the dirt from sitting on the floor. Eventually, i make it to the door. I stop, dreading the thought of walking in and being called out for being late. I take a deep breath in, and push the door open.