Why?

How Can I?

I open a word document

To write down my feelings

But nothing came to me.

I didn't know what to feel,

How to feel.

I don't understand why I can't feel,

I'm numb and it hurts

I want to cry

But I don't know how.

I want to scream out everything,

Everything that I've done wrong,

But nothing falls out but a small squeak.

Why can't I do this?

Why can't a live a normal life

And be good at what I do?