La Douleur Exquise

Chapter 4

The walk to the car and the entire ride back to our hotel was silent. Shockingly she was just as clingy as I expected her to be since I was leaving tomorrow. She usually was abnormally attached to my side whenever I was leaving soon.

After her argument with Normani and then finding out we kissed I thought I was going to be on apology mode for the rest of my time here. But instead of being pissed she was just silent and it was honestly worrying me more.

She would barely even crack a smile when I was attempting to cheer her up. I wasn't as adamant about it when we got to the hotel because it was already late. The next day though I spent most of the time basically having a one sided conversation.

It was starting to make me sad how silent and almost numb she was being towards me now. At least the night before she was cuddled into me the entire time. Now, she wasn't really letting me touch her and was putting space between us so I wouldn't be able to.

At that point whatever happened yesterday was obviously effecting her more then she was trying to let on. So, I stopped messing with her so I didn't make anything worse and instead put my energy into trying to talk to Normani. At first she responded until I brought up why I was actually texting her, then she claimed to be busy even though I knew compared to yesterday she had almost nothing to do. I ultimately stopped trying with both of them after a few hours.

With the only two people I knew in the city ignoring me, I was glued to my phone. Ally was in class so although I would intermittently text her, I was mostly constantly scrolling through all the social media sites; even watching all of the Snapchat stories on my page.

I easily got bored of that. Being some type of busy the last couple of weeks and now having literally nothing to do was making me antsy. But Jilly was obviously being weird and I didn't want to force her to go out with me.

I opted on staying in the room and just absentmindedly watching whatever channel Jilly had it on even though she wasn't watching it. I was so lost in my own thoughts and half watching the TV, I barely caught her mumbling that she was going to the hotel store. I closed my eyes once the door shut, hoping that she would say something to me before I caught my plane later.

When I opened my eyes again I could tell by the different direction of the sun shining into the room that I fell asleep. I sat up on the bed, grabbing my phone to check that I had indeed fell asleep and it was three hours later. It seemed as if Jillyan was still gone but I called for her just in case she was in the bathroom.

"Baby?"

As I expected she walked around the corner from where the bathroom was. I looked at her for a couple seconds as she just stood in the same spot. I hadn't expected her to just stand there but I spoke softly anyways to explain.

"I just wanted to make sure you were here."

She nodded but didn't move from where she was. I was confused but since everything she was doing the last almost 24 hours was confusing me, I dropped the thought before it even started. I responded to messages from my Ally and was in the middle of responding to my dad asking about my flight times again when I was startled by Jillyan speaking.

"Y/N.... Can we talk?"

I nodded making her do the same before sitting on the edge of the bed. I finished my message out before setting my phone down and moving to sit next to her.