Stupid shit

Should I break this promise?

I fucking hate myself!!!!
I can't even cut my wrist again because of you(V.D)...
If only I could disappear from this world...
Everything would have been different...

Should I break my promise by cutting my wrist again??
Somehow I regret from making such a silly promise...
I said I won't cut and after 1 week, I cut again...

If you were in my place, you would have understood why I've been cutting recently...
I can't even share it with anyone...
I'm dying slowly from inside...

I won't be able to stay any longer with this secret...
I'm suffering a lot because of this...
If only I could tell you...
If only there was someone whom I can trust...