"Your mcm might be cute but mine knows all the words to Lord of the Rings"- me.
Only you were just that; a crush. An escape. A distraction from the heartbreak, the heartbreak he caused, and I'm sorry for leading you astray. So this is my time wasters apology.
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He left and I pushed my attention on to you for a while, it numbed the pain and filled a void. Then I left. I had to. Now I'm back, back to feeling the pain, and screaming at the void because now I realise you were just a distraction, and I never stopped thinking of him, and I don't think I could ever stop loving him no matter how ever hard I tried, to love you.
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Please God, cut my forever short if I am to be without him.
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I'm so sorry baby girl, I promise I loved you. I did want you, I have always wanted you and I always will. I'm sorry I was so selfish. If I couldn't have you no one could. I hope you can one day forgive me. Until I see you again Ellie-Grace, my beautiful little girl.
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Isn't it sad that pain is the only thing that feels real anymore.
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Confessions of a shitty poet.
PoetrySome of my poems contain bad language/sensitive issues and therefore I have changed the setting to mature and issue a trigger warning. I am forever updating this book, it will probably never be finished.
