i need help
Like i need some real mental support
Like im so fucking crazy in the head
I zone out to a place where no one wants to go
My brain is a mental hell
I hate it
The thoughts in my head are so bad
Its sadI put a smile on my face everyday
To show them im okay
But in real life im hurt
Im broken
I just cant thinkI have fantisies of killing myself
But if i really do kill myself where would i go?
Is there really a heaven or hell
Is there really a god?I think way too much to where the thoughts are deep
Wayyyy to deep.. Its dangerousI cant take it nomore
I just wanna end all the pain
I dont kno how to be numb
Im just dumbIm too dumb to realize that its no such thing as happiness
We fantasize about a thing called "happiness" thats never going to existSo why think about it?
I dont even kno i just want it___________________________________________
created 9/28/17
posted 10/8/17(A/N: the title of each poem will be named after someone, something or a song. )