I faked my death to get away from my old foster family. The abuse.. the jabs at my feelings, the hatred thrown at me and shoved down my throat everyday was too much. far too much. There's only so much torment a human being can withstand. I had to le...
when i saw her holding her ex's hand running down the hall with him hurt me. i know i shouldnt be mad but i was and i took it out on the girl i love the most in this world. i was crying so bad and nash came to ask me what i was doing but stopped when he saw me in tears.
i explained what was going on and asked him just to tell the other guys so i wouldnt have to. hailey has been gone for like 4 hours but then called me, i didnt answer but then it ringed for the second time. i picked up and said
"what do you want" i said holding in the tears i had running down my face
she asked me what was wrong and i completely snapped at her yelling, and expressing the way i felt. she didnt answer but i knew what was going on.
she was crying. i made her cry.
i hung up on her before she could answer. i packed all of her clothes and set them by the door. i stayed up untill i heard the door unlocking, i pretended to sleep while she started talking to me
"it was always you Cameron, but if you cant see that then its not meant to be just know i will always be madly in love with you. stay strong cammy because this is the last time we will ever talk again, until you realize that it was you sense the start but you always kicked me out of your life and its the reason why im gone now. i love you cam and one day i hope you'll love me too."
i heard her say to me, i wanted to pull her in to a hug and apologize to her. but i cant. i cant go through the pain of letting someone in just to get hurt in the end.
she means the world to me but if i love her i have to let her go. im not the good man she needs in her life, she needs someone like gilinsky.
i see hailey walk out of the room in tears with her bags in her hand. why do i feel like my heart has been stabbed over and over again? why do i depend on her so much? she has my heart in her hands its up to her if it gets broken or does it heal. its all up to her at this point.
without thinking i fall asleep thinking about the one and only Hailey Marie Lee
7 hours later
i wake up and looking to see if hailey came back, but after i blew up on her i dont blame her for not coming back
nash knocks on my door and comes in telling me we leave in 30 minutes for the first magcon date.
i get out of bed heading to the bathroom and doing what i need to do. i get dressed in to something nice but not to nice ya know?
(what cams wearing)
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i put put on my hat and walk out my room and see hailey walking out of nash's room. her eyes were puffy and read .
she looked up at me and gave me a weak smile but then look down at her phone and continue walking to gilinskys room. about ten minutes later of waiting in the lobby for everyone they all come down.
hailey looks so beautiful i dont know why i did what i did. but now i ruined everything
(what haileys wearing. and makeup)
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after we the boys got done talking we made our way to the limo, and there wasn't enough space so hailey sat on Daniels lap and Zach say on the floor.
i was jealous about her sitting on his lap but you know what 2 can play this game. and im going to make sure every one knows it.
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sorry for not updating but i think im going to start updating every 3 days instead of everyday.
