W I N G S

· I'm here ·

In the next morning, they packed their things and met Jin and Namjoon to go to the beach. Yoongi and Hoseok still on the back seat and Tae, Kookie and Jimin in the back of the truck, all of them waiting to see the ocean.
Seeing Hoseok asleep, Jin and Namjoon shared a look and both nodded, looking at Yoongi who was playing with his lighter, while he was resting his forehead on the window.
"Yoongi, how do you feel?" Namjoon asked.
"I'm tired, I just woke up at 7 am, I can't even think straight. I feel like passing out right here."
"Then why don't you sleep a bit?" Jin suggested. "Hobi is already sleeping."
"I can't, the trio is screaming," Yoongi pointed at the three who were in the back of the truck.
"Then talk to us."
"About what, Jin? I already told you I'm too tired."
"About what keeps you awake at night," Namjoon said firmly. "And don't you even dare to lie."
"I'm just stressing about work, my boss is a bitch and my clients are just the same, Yoongi said with a deep sigh. "It's not a big deal, I'm just mad and stressed."
"Why is giving piano lessons so stressful?" Namjoon asked with a raised eyebrow.
Yoongi looked at him visibly annoyed, but understood from his eyes that he was going to insist.
"Because I have to be perfect. Because parents send their kids to me to teach them how to be a part of society and I can't do this if I'm a fucking mess. I can't teach them to feel the music, I can only teach them how to play the fucking piano, which is be fucking point. Everyone expects me to control something I'm not even supposed to control and if I don't live up to their expectations I may lose my job. So yeah, that's what I'm so stressed about. Happy to hear?"
Jin and Namjoon listened to Yoongi's anger, waiting for him to let it out and calm down, nodding so he would know that they listened. Jin let out a sigh of relief, but Namjoon still thought Yoongi didn't tell them everything, the "mess" part sticking on his mind. He kept on watching Yoongi playing with his lighter, looking for a moment to ask him about the real problem.

Before he could do that, the beach was there. Kookie and Jimin were the loudest, waking Hobi up, then Tae and Yoongi joined and they all screamed happily while Jin drove his truck on the sand, as close to the ocean as he could.
As soon as Jin stopped the car, everyone jumped and ran towards the waves, screaming and laughing. Jin took his camera and ran to his friends. Everyone laughed, they played with everything they found, while Jin was recording everything. Namjoon watched Yoongi having fun, he looked genuinely happy, but he was still in doubt and the way he literally ran away screaming with the others clearly wasn't his style, so Namjoon couldn't help but wonder what was the green-mint haired guy thinking about.
They ran around, Namjoon and Jimin playing with Jimin's blanket and Jin enjoying everything from the side, careful to record everything so they would have more beautiful memories together. Tae made a funny face for the camera as soon as he saw it and soon everyone was beside the car for a group photo. They made funny faces, teasing each other, allowing Jin to take a few crazy shots, but they also stood still and smiled until they heard the 'click'. Immediately after, they ran towards the ocean while throwing their clothes away. They entered the cold water and shivered a bit, but they still splashed each other. Jin was still holding his camera, something telling him to keep recording their happy days. He had a bad feeling and his throat was dry, but he kept on smiling and teasing his friends while he held closely to his camera.

When they realized the sun was setting, they quickly got dressed and walked towards the car, but didn't see Kookie anywhere. Everyone was there to look for him, calling his name, but he was nowhere to be found. Jimin spotted him on the edge of a lighthouse, all the way up, looking like he was ready to jump. Namjoon froze. He watched the youngest boy with concerned and at the same time hopeful eyes, thinking that maybe he wasn't there to kill himself. "Maybe he won't do anything... Please, Kookie, stay safe," he thought.
Seeing himself up there, Jeongguk swallowed and he could feel his heart beating so fast he could hear it over the waves that were hitting the beach. He looked down at his hyungs who were staring at him and calling his name, telling him to come back down. He could hear concern and panic in their voices and suddenly fear hit him. "What if I'll really die? What is going to happen to me? What is going to happen to them?" The thoughts kept running through his mind and he was afraid of jumping. Afraid of dying. His throat was dry and his legs wouldn't move. He closed his eyes as tight as he could and he slowly leaned backwards. If he was going to fall, at least he could chose to fall back inside. He groaned as he hit the ground, but also let out a breath of relief. He stood there, hugging his knees, trying to steady his breathing and fight back the tears, until he heard footsteps. Everyone was standing beside him, asking what happened. He couldn't let them know. He didn't want to be a burden, they already had their own worries.
"Nothing, really," he said, his voice a bit shaky. "I didn't want to jump, I wanted to stay there and enjoy the chilly air, but I got scared. I'm fine, it's okay."
Yoongi was stroking his back trying to help him calm down, while Namjoon got closer and whispered something in his ear. Jimin, who was right beside them, was able to hear Namjoon's words.
After they helped Kookie to his feet, they slowly walked towards the car, everyone already laughing around Kookie, who still seemed a bit anxious. Jimin though couldn't relax. He grabbed Namjoon's shirt, which made him stop and look back to see Jimin's worried look.
"What's the matter, Jiminie?" he asked in a caring and also concerned voice.
"Joonie hyung, I heard what you said about talking to Kookie later about what happened today," Jimin said, averting his eyes. "Can I talk to him too, please? I'm really worried and I have a bad feeling. Please, hyung."
He lifted his head again and looked Namjoon straight in his eyes, trying to show him he was determined to help his maknae. Namjoon curled his lips into a soft smile and ruffled Jimin's hair, nodding.
"Sure, but we need to talk to him alone. We'll do it at my place, is that okay?"
Jimin nodded happily and ran to get in line with everyone again. Namjoon walked slowly behind them, carefully watching his friends.